Some time in mid-December last year, I joined this awesome, wonderful, unique family – Inspirits. For those who don’t know, Inspirits are the fans of kpop boy band Infinite. It came about as a huge irony, considering how I always told my mum & sis that I would never go kpop crazy, but I did. It was a really quick process; I watched one episode of Ranking King since my sis was watching it (she’s an Inspirit before me), and I grew curious. Probed around more, continued watching, and I officially became an Inspirit even before I knew it. Infinite is the first group that I went crazy over, watching all their variety shows, listening to all their songs, going high & following all their updates.
I don’t regret it one bit, despite having to acknowledge that my love for kpop has died down a little since uni started, it’s hard to cope with all the fangirling amidst the insane workload in uni. That aside, I am proud to say that I am still a faithful Inspirit. Just like what Dongwoo (my ultimate bias in Infinite) said,
“Once you become Inspirit, you will be Inspirit forever. We will also be Infinite forever!”
Indeed, once an Inspirit, always an Inspirit. This fandom has always been so special to me as it made me feel like family (I know this might sound crazy for those who don’t understand). Being an Inspirit allowed me to forge many strong bonds & friendships, it allowed me to get to know more Inspirits, some of whom have became such good friends of mine, sharing the same passion & love for Infinite. I always thought Inspirits were different from other fandoms (no offence to other fandoms okay), staying united in times of crisis or whatsoever. I chose to believe in that, but I think whatever happened today made me … disappointed, really really disappointed.
Myungsoo/L of Infinite was rumoured to be dating an ulzzang named Kim Do Yeon. And I can’t emphasize how important the word RUMOURED means. There isn’t real proof, and both Woolliment & L has denied it. Personally, it seems to me as baseless claims. Yeah there might be pictures & stuff, but it doesn’t all tally, and most claims have already been discredited by all the comparisons and probing by other Inspirits who have such sharp eyes & good observations. Woolliment & L both said that they were just good friends, and they were not dating. And you know what? I choose to trust their words. If they say it isn’t true, then I believe it isn’t. After all, everything is built on trust – what’s the point of being in a fandom where you can’t even do the simplest of things, to trust your bias/idol’s words?
It really disheartens me to know that various of L’s major fansites have gone on a hiatus because of this. Imagine how L would feel knowing that his fans don’t even trust him, imagine how he’d feel knowing his fans decide to “ditch” him at a time like this – just because of a baseless rumour. If Kim Do Yeon is really just setting this whole thing up (after all I learnt that she did the same with GD but was exposed to be lying), wouldn’t L be nothing but a victim, someone who’s as hurt as all his fans, in this incident?
Perhaps the fans from these major fansites are deeply hurt by this piece of news. Honestly I was really shocked and appalled when I first learnt of it as well, just like all the eLements/Inspirits out there. I guess it came across as something I didn’t expect would happen. But think about it, so what if it is true, and what if it isn’t? True Inspirits should still stay in the fandom and unconditionally support Infinite no matter what, isn’t it? Isn’t that the whole point of being an Inspirit? And shouldn’t we respect the privacy of idols? They are humans too, they have feelings too, and they have absolutely every right to date whoever they want, they have the freedom of choice, freedom to do whatever they want. It’s simply unfair to deprive them of the basic rights in their lives just because they chose to venture into the profession of being idols. Yeah there might be some mandatory compromise here and there, in terms of them having to watch their behavior/things they do and say since they are public figures, but I sincerely feel that the (negative) reactions from the fans were absolutely unnecessary.
With all of that said, I think I need to clarify – I’m not bashing anyone or whatever, I just feel that as Inspirits, the main thing we should be doing now is to stay strong and not doubt our idols. Would it make you feel better if you see a gloomy Infinite on stage (especially L) because they were affected by this entire issue? For one, it would make me feel nothing but sad and miserable. And they have feelings too okay ): Really hoping that everything will be clarified soon, and that the matter will just fade away into the background and not be mentioned anymore. And that this won’t jeopardize Infinite’s career in any way ):
On a happier note, Infinite’s Request is such a nice song + the MV is so awesome *o* Inspirits, please continue to support them unconditionally alright? That’s the fandom that I am proud to be in. And INFINITE OGS Singapore is in 8 days (: I really really really can’t wait for 5 Oct to come, everything feels so surreal right now omg.
“Because there are Inspirits, there’s Infinite. And because there’s Infinite, there are Inspirits.” – INFINITE Myungsoo
Infinite x Inspirit, may everything get better soon. Because this is the fandom I’m really, really proud to be in.