Runaway

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Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t,

and believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it. 

Nobody said that it’d be easy, 

They just promised it’d be worth it.

Spent my time just now listening to all of Avril’s songs – both from old & present. Seriously can’t wait for her 6th album to be released (hopefully next year), because her songs are so therapeutic & just mean so much to me. No matter what other singers/artistes there are out there, Avril Lavigne’s position in my heart is irreplaceable :”) Proud to be a Little Black Star since primary school, wouldn’t trade spending my childhood listening to her songs for any other.

It’s quite a coincidence how the topic of trust pops out randomly again these days … so interesting listening to the different perspectives/advice from people I confide in. Don’t know why I did that in the first place but I’m glad I did. Everyone needs a little breather some time, so I’m genuinely thankful for the chances/platforms where I got to rant. But it doesn’t change the fact that it makes me feel guilty/burdenful towards those I talk to. 

Headed down to IMH yesterday morning for their volunteer orientation programme, it was so insightful & reaffirms my passions for the field of psychology & volunteering. As cliche as it sounds, it’s really about helping the people you can help to the best of your abilities, & making a difference. I’m positive with each volunteering experience comes great insights, hopefully being able to shape myself into becoming a better person! May it be a wonderful & meaningful journey of volunteering ahead.

Went back to hwach with the clique for MAF yesterday :’) Really miss hanging out daily at the CT bench, walking around or just chilling at random places & doing stupid stuff during break times. I miss randomly doodling on A’s paper etc (haha best tablemate ever really), or playing navigation with hierarchy tier mate. JC may or may not have been the best time of my life, but it definitely became better with the presence of my awesome clique. Without them, I think I wouldn’t be where I am today, really.

I kind of miss the tradition of celebrating MAF actually … I remember how we used to head to playgrounds with lanterns (either the electronic ones or the candle-lit ones), with a box of candles & just lighting them up to form shapes on the ground. If growing up means losing all these precious moments & little joys in life, then I’d rather time rewind & not move forward ahead.

I’m thankful for certain friendships in my life. Old or new, they all mean a lot to me, more than words can ever express, so thank you for the constants in my life. I guess the number of years attached to a friendship just reaffirms it, but even if it’s new friendships made recently, who says it can’t last for a lifetime? :’)

So much to do yet so little time, feeling so stressed out I’m not even kidding … but I’ll have faith. This is the last day of August, so till the next time we meet again in September x

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Special Stars

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For some of us are much harder to love. For some of us, living doesn’t exist, we are here surviving. We can breathe but not freely like the others. For some of us would describe ourselves as terrifying, different and damaged. For some of us let someone do this to us. Mess us up so badly emotionally and mentally that we have turned cold because that’s the only way we can survive the pain that is guaranteed to come. For some of us are called “selfish” when the people around us are too selfish to realize that we are not okay. For some of us need that drink to keep our hands away from the things that rip into our flesh. For some of us don’t have it easy and have grown up in this perfect society something less than human. For some of us have lived enough nightmares that we can’t feel anymore. For some of us spend hours every night trying to fall asleep with our hands over our mouths so no one can hear us crying, so we can’t hear ourselves crying. For some of us can’t be broken because we already are.

Happy Little Pill

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Really need to get my hands on a copy of Lullabies soon omg *o* Apparently it’s pre-released in Kinokuniya already … now I just gotta find time to head down before all the pre-released copies are snatched away. Lang Leav’s poems are always such an inspiration & so nice to read :’) So talented.

‘ve quite a bit to post about, but time isn’t on my side so … I’ll update proper this weekend if possible!

Till then x

CSC Outreach 2014

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In the midst of happiness or despair

In sorrow or in joy

In pleasure or in pain

Do what is right & you will be at peace

CSC Outreach is finally over! :”)

The first day of any planning for Outreach began on 21 July 2014, which coincidentally is also the first meeting where we had as the main committee heading Youth Rangers for AY 14/15. In the short span of a few weeks, I’m glad we managed to pull it off pretty well (in my opinion), garnering decent sign ups for Youth Rangers (: I’m glad that these potential volunteers are willing to give YR a chance, considering how we are merely a probationary RVP.

Because they believe in the potential in our PRVP, we must not let them down. Words simply can’t express how proud I am of my committee for their dedication in making Outreach a success, in one way or another. Admittedly there were minor hiccups along the way, but we learn from them, and make things work out ultimately. Also, this is the first time the 7 of us are working together on such a (considerably) large scale project, so no regrets with the outcome at all. 

The past week has been insane, with Outreach related stuff every single day. Final rehearsal with other C/Y Sector heads for our talk on Monday + preparation of booth & comm meeting on Tuesday + Outreach Tour on wed to fri + Outreach Talk on Friday evening. I’m sooo glad it’s finally over because I don’t know why but it has been so draining, yet fulfilling at the same time of course.

But just like what 940 said, this is merely step 0 of this entire process. Recruitment of volunteers, retention of volunteers, structure of YR, there are so many things that are undone but urgent matters. I’m confident in the committee, to bring YR to greater heights :’) 

One major plus point of Outreach was that I got to know more people better. Tanking 12 official hours of duty (& idk how many hours I crashed duty haha), it really allowed me to talk to quite a few comm members on a 1-to-1 basis, and it’s interesting to learn about the perspective towards certain things that they may have. I won’t be ashamed to actually declare that our comm subtly became closer, with more inside jokes shared & what-not (:

Alright, not only did I get to know my comm better, I got to know other people in CSC better as well! For one, I’m not as awkward around the other C/Y Sector heads already (I hope), as compared to the first meeting, which was SO awkward for me I literally felt like just slumping down in my chair & being a major phantom/fading into the background – no kidding. But things got better, I’m thankful for their time in entertaining me when I was bored & just playing around with me, or helping out Youth Rangers booth during duty even though they aren’t obliged to :’)

It’s the little actions in each & every member of CSC that makes this experience so meaningful. As I said before, the people in CSC give off a vibe that’s vastly different from the rest of the population, yet within CSC, everyone gives off this same friendly kind courteous vibe that’s just so … genuine. And I like it a lot, I really do. Thankful to be part of this CSC family, grateful to YR, grateful to everyone.

Just had the sudden realization that today’s the only day in this entire week where I’m not out & about being involved with CSC matters. ‘was suppose to go for GAW today but due to other commitments, I had to pull out. Which is pretty regretful because I’ve been wanting to experience the wish collection phase of GAW ): Ah well, sacrifices, priorities. There’s CSC Elections Day 1 tomorrow! Going to be attending & just listening to speeches, hope it’ll be an interesting experience so x fingers!

Shall end off with the quote included in the signature of YR email:

Everything has beauty, but not everyone can see.

Till the next time x

Reality

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So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.

3 days of Outreach has finally concluded, really drained but thankful it was a fulfilling & meaningful experience. Will post proper about Outreach, perhaps tomorrow (definitely soon), so stay tuned x

A Letter For Your Soul When Nothing Seems To Be Going Right

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I need to start here: none of what happened to you was your fault. Not one single moment of it. You didn’t do anything to deserve it. You heard right: life isn’t fair.

I wish I could tell you that things are going to get better soon, and that things will never be awful for you again. But I won’t lie to you; life will be more unfair and harder for you than for most. While life may be worse for other people, it is still all right to be upset with your circumstances.

There are some things people shouldn’t have to live with. Even if you can survive something it doesn’t mean you should have to, but you can, and you will. Things are going to stay hard for a while, and I am so sorry it will take so long for you to start getting the good things…

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