Freedom

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Well you need to be content with small steps. That’s all life is. Small steps that you take every day so when you look back down the road it all adds up and you know you covered some distance. It took me a long time to accept that, but it’s true. You need to have patience.

The first of three Friday the 13th in 2015 was well spent, catching up with my favorite girls at our usual hangout place. I guess as we all grow up together, things change and different life experiences/encounters morph us into who are are supposed to be. Yet we still complement each other, able to chat like there’s no tomorrow, while sharing ridiculous happenings. Such memories will never fade, for I’m sure they will be held close and dear to our hearts, even as we grow up and continue to lead diverging lives. Every meetup is like a new beginning, never an ending nor the closure of a chapter in our lives. Pretty interested to know what’s in store for all of us! And more than thankful for the fact that there are true friends whom I can fall back on when I am upset or when my insecurities act up. To sum up, I’m so so blessed :’)

Finally got down to collating all confirmed deadlines/schedules, and the next few weeks leading up till the end of the semester seem quite hectic hmm. Seriously hope for an increase in productivity … so that I’ll be able to cope with all my commitments and handle studies at the same time ): But no regrets for the commitments, because as tiring and draining they may be, the satisfaction and happiness that comes from it is waaay more than worth it! But with that said, I seriously need to learn how to prioritize & allocate my time properly HAHA.

So excited to see our youths again tomorrow, can’t deny that they are one of my biggest motivations to get through each week (albeit sessions being on Tuesdays), hoping for a higher attendance rate for our CNY Celeb/community blessing with our youths tomorrow :’) Every session with them leaves me feeling so heartened and proud of their growth & progress, even if it’s just a micro improvement. Because at least it’s something, isn’t it? 🙂

Many things to look forward to this year, can’t wait for Avril Lavigne’s 6th studio album + Lana Del Rey’s new album titled Honeymoon to be released! Good songs make me really, really happy, especially with lyrics that mean so damn much so yaaaay for good music.

And CNY is approaching so quickly yaaaay so excited *pops confetti* haven’t decide how to paint my nails for CNY, or maybe I’ll be lazy and do without ’em designs haha. Alright time to up my productivity so ….. till the next time! Happy (belated) Valentine’s everyone, may the world be filled with more love x

The Girl Who Believes In Fate

“She has built walls from her past, but they will eventually crumble. When she does open up, you’ll embark on a new adventure and discover the mysteries of the world.”

Beautiful piece of article written :’)

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She who believes in fate has patience and knows a good thing will come her way. She knows the past has been littered with disappointment, heartbreak and personal scars. She grows from this.

She knows that life continues. On the outside, she appears to walk aimlessly through life, yet she knows she is just taking in the little pleasures. She likes to run her fingers along the spines of books on a dusty shelf in the bookstore. Or, you’ll catch her smelling bright yellow lemons at the grocery store that she’ll later use for an intricate meal she’ll cook for herself. She sits inside a Starbucks scribbling in a notebook and tonguing the foam out of the plastic lid like she simply doesn’t care if anyone is watching.

She works hard, tucking bits of her earnings away. She’s a rainy day kind of gal. If she could, she’d…

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Happiness

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Time check: 4.13am in the morning, and I’m finally done settling a few stuff for Proj C.A.N.! Just wanted to post my original quote:

Tidying minutes feels like giving birth – tedious during the process yet ultimately worth it when it’s done. – Shiao (2015)

Clearly I need sleep HAHA. Loads of thoughts to post about but that will be saved for the next post! Whatever it is, really happy to have finally completed my 12-pages first meeting minutes as the sectreas of Project C.A.N. XII! 🙂

Insanely busy and overwhelmed with the amount of things to do from various commitments (and I’m not even including academics in this) … but I’ll get through it.

Till the next time! x

The Great Escape

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Sometimes the best thing you can do is take a step back and give yourself a chance to breathe.

Feeling guilty for neglecting endlessparadigm but school has been really tiring/busy, hence the lack of updates. Taking the time now to review on the first few weeks since 2015 has started! Finally managing to catch a breather despite the growing pile of backlog that I’ve accumulated in the mere 4 weeks of school.

Officially began Y2S2 as a Psychology major, and ‘am reading quite a few interesting modules this semester (though they drive me crazy at times). Hoping for the semester to be a fulfilling one in terms of academics! Timetable is relatively okay, at least I’m satisfied with it apart from Tuesdays on even weeks which are simply h e l l. But I’ll get through it, the pains & sacrifices for better days in the week is ultimately worth it.

Sis turned 21 a few days ago on 1 Feb, happy (belated) 21st sis! ♥♥♥ It has been a good 21 years (and counting) being sisters, and somehow we still continue to amaze people around us about how we are born in the same year yet aren’t twins haha. Thankful for the sis to be there through different phases of my life, be it my lowest or highest moments. Definitely looking forward to more sister-times & late night chats & (currently) spazzing over the Song triplets together these days :’)

Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest steps of your life. Tip toe if you must – but take the step.

Earlier in January I made the decision to apply for Proj C.A.N. XII OC, in hopes of enriching my volunteering journey in NUS CSC by extending it beyond RVPs – and officially venturing into SPs as well. Thankful for the chance to be the sectreas, and ‘am pretty excited to meet the OC during our first meeting, hoping that socially awkward me will be able to survive it though haha. At least I’ll be camping behind my laptop furiously typing minutes so it’ll help alleviate some awkwardness in me (hopefully)!

During my interview, I got asked the primary question that all volunteers will probably come across at least once in their lives:

What does volunteerism mean to you?

Honestly felt that my answer during the interview wasn’t able to perfectly encapsulate the thoughts that I have pertaining to this question because of how nervous I was haha. Volunteerism is something that should come from your heart, and not for the sake of superficiality – for it will not only be detrimental to yourself, but your beneficiaries as well. Volunteerism is seen when you contribute your time & effort in various ways, even if it’s just spending time with your beneficiaries, without expecting any personal returns or gains, apart from satisfaction and happiness within. Volunteerism means to befriend your beneficiaries, getting to know them for who they really are, being able to see past the possible disadvantages they may have in their lives. Nobody is perfect, we might just  be slightly more privileged than others out in society, hence affording to render our services to alleviate their lives, be it in terms of physical items or simply inculcating values etc. Volunteerism shouldn’t be seen as something that’s noble or whatsoever, it shouldn’t be something that you choose to do just because you have some time to spare. Volunteerism should be nothing but sincerity, it should be something innate, where you don’t feel compelled or pressurized to do whatever you do. Because volunteering means as much to me as the importance of people understanding the spirit of volunteerism. So this, is what volunteerism means to me :’)

Visited Lola’s Cafe yesterday for the first time with A & Y! Haven’t had much time to indulge in cafe hopping, so I was really glad for the much needed midweek break that really served its purpose to recharge me (: Explored Sengkang area, and despite it being my playground when I was waaaay younger, I had little recollection of the area. As usual, spazzed like crazy girls at the void deck after collecting our Infinite H Fly Again albums with my fellow Inspirit hee. Can’t believe that it has been a good 2 years since I first did the whole “spazz at void deck while opening our albums/posters” things for Infinite H’s debut album :’) Congratulations to Infinite H for securing their first win as a subunit, may there be many more of such happy moments to come in the near future!

Thank you for all the belated presents for my 20th back in December last year, thoughtful well wishes/messages really mean a lot to me! And I realised that I’ve received 5 soft toy related presents … I guess that says something about how I should really try to grow up but whoooops I love them all haha they bring me comfort :’) Defo need to blog about this original quote from one of my best friends (you know who you are) in my birthday letter, just because you know how much of a sucker I am for quotes! So for remembrance’s sake:

Friends are like the weather, be it rain or shine, they would always be there for you.

I guess it’s time to head back to studying while waiting for my next lesson … can’t wait for lessons to end today, because it will yet again signify the end of the academic week! Thank goodness for free day Fridays, it makes my weekend seem so long (especially since my lecture on Monday starts at 6pm only) HAHA. Time to pick up the pace, determined to make things the best yet.

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In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn’t be the person we are. So just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories. But never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you’re going.

Till the next time, I’ll try to be more diligent in updating hee till then x

P.S. So excited for Avril Lavigne to release her Give You What You Like MV on 21 Feb, as well as dropping her new single Fly!!