Remedy

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I think one of my favourite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing halfway through, how much you enjoy them and their existence.

We’re all pieces of the same ever-changing puzzle; some connected for mere seconds, some connected for life, some connected through knowledge, some through belief, some through love, and some connected with no explanation at all. Yet, as spiritual beings having a human experience, we’re all here for the sensations this reality or illusion has to offer. The best anyone can hope for is the right to be able to live, learn, and love. After which, reap the benefits of their own chosen existence in the hereafter, by virtue of simply believing in what they believe.

The past few days have been nothing but hectic & stressful, albeit fun & meaningful. But sometimes, everything just seems to get too tough to handle. Sometimes, all I want is to be able to step aside and take a break from all these, to really have some time to clear my mind and not have to worry about anything. And yet these become wishful thinking, and I know for certain it’s almost impossible. After all, this is reality, and any second wasted would render rushed times in the near future. Which would then lead to more stress, thus forming a vicious cycle that I won’t be able to step out from.

And yet, the past few days have showed me the importance of friends, the importance of daring to open up, the importance of not putting up a strong front any longer. Nothing touches me more than having people willing to sacrifice their time for me, to just listen to whatever I have to say. These little gestures mean a lot to me, and as much as I suck at showing my thankfulness, I really do appreciate such actions a lot. And I’ve learnt, or rather try to convince myself, that it’s okay not to be okay; where mistakes should serve nothing more than a learning process, rather than having guilt of wrong decisions overwhelm me more than it should.

I’ve realized that looking backwards only hinders growth. Because the more time you spend in solitude, the more you look back to everything that once seemed so right, yet seems so wrong now. The wrong moves, the wrong decisions. You loved with everything and you hurt with everything; it’s how you operate. Yet, you’re okay. Eventually, you’re okay. You live, you’re happy, and you finally move on. But it’s alright to be slightly bitter & hurt while attempting to mature. It’s all very confusing and unfair at times, but it’s no longer your loss nor your mystery to solve.

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We are like strangers, who started to know each other better, bit by bit.

Till the next time x

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Nostalgia

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Life is simple, but we insist on making it complicated.

The truth is, we don’t know how to make it simple because we’re constantly trying to find what makes us happy. The thing is there’s nothing wrong with trial & error. There’s nothing wrong with failing one too many times, and there’s certainly nothing wrong with winning one too many times either. One thing we can all agree on, is that life isn’t fair. But what is fair is the choice we make to obtain happiness. Some choose to participate. Some choose to disrupt the order. Some get all the attention, and some thrive in the shadows. Some enjoy the thrill, and some play it safe. Some choose to work hard, and some hardly work. Some play the game, and some would rather make the rules. The world is too big for any one path to be the right one. So regardless of the path you choose, remember that it remains unique to you. It becomes your story. And this is what inspires us.

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Clandestine

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I’m stuck in the dark but you’re my flashlight.

For the clues have been blatantly lying around, you’ve just got to pick up the fragments & piece them together, in order to fully understand the specificities of such things. It’s a pity when people aren’t able to view the full picture – perhaps it’s merely a moment of evasiveness. Or was it a case of accidentally-on-purpose? I hope never to find out, should it be the case of the latter.

On a sidenote, it’s amazing how someone can just turn your bad day entirely around with merely a few words & exchange of conversations. Fascinating, yet scary at the same time. Nevertheless, ‘am genuinely thankful from the deep deep bottom of my heart 🙂 At least it’s good to have experienced some tranquillity amidst the craziness that’s currently going on in my life.

Finally for a change, something actually makes sense for once. So let this continue to be clandestine, so there won’t be a possibility of complications arising from the external.

Aren’t the roses so pretty? I think I’m starting to take an inclined liking for flowers, after all 🙂

Till the next time x