Life doesn’t let you go back and change things. All you can do is learn from the past, and prepare for what the future may bring.
As much as I appreciate honesty, if I said I was okay hearing all those, I’d be lying. But the truth hurts, and truth be told, I don’t know how long it’ll be before I reach my breaking point. When you have to handle so many things all at once, it gets tiring, so overwhelming, and so, so lonely at times. I know I shouldn’t be feeling or thinking so negatively, but it’s inevitable given the circumstances – how can I keep up with this facade, knowing the realities of the truth? How many more masks of smiling faces & pretending that everything’s alright can I tolerate, before I give up?
Nights like these, I almost regret all those decisions back then. Almost.