The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.
More often than not, people engage in self-blaming & I am no less guilty than others of it. But recently after some conversations, I realised that my self-blame has been … impeding/restricting myself to a point where it isn’t healthy. Many things will take a wrong turn in life, there are some instances which we might really have been able to avoid, but what about those where the fault clearly doesn’t lie on our end?
“Maybe sometimes we can only see the truth about ourselves if someone shows us where to look.“
But it all boils down to the “what-ifs” yet again. And it doesn’t help that something so significant to me met with a screw-up, which resulted in failure. Maybe it’s my refusal to process it, maybe it’s my subconscious trying to deny the fact that it isn’t my fault. Maybe it’s just me trying to convince myself that I could have done more/better, so that I don’t feel as guilty to them. Maybe I didn’t have the right words, maybe I offended them unknowingly, maybe maybe maybe. And what if, I had the chance to do it all over again? How would I have done it differently? I honestly don’t know.
You don’t have to be good all the time. It’s okay to be hurt sometimes.
It’s okay to feel lost like you’re wandering around in the dark.
It’s the bad days that make the good ones so much better.
-Brittainy C. Cherry
Tired. Incredibly tired this time round.