I think people would be happier if they admitted things more often. In a sense we are all prisoners of some memory, or fear, or disappointment—we are all defined by something we can’t change.
Spent the weekend reflecting about how my transition has been.
Truly blessed to have been given the chance to join the Hope team, and yet feeling so inferior and wondering if I’ll ever be able to live up to expectations. Honestly, despite all the affirmation from people around me and all the confidence boosters & encouragements, I still feel…. incompetent & inadequate.
This transition, in its totality, still feels too surreal to be true. May I one day grow to acknowledge my role to be where I am. Till then, it’s an ongoing push I’ll need to give myself to feel like I’m allowed to be where I am, and doing what I’m doing.
Going for a 5-day course next Wednesday onwards, may the course help me to gain some clarity in my role and how I fit in to this whole sector.