Time check: 3.11am. And desperately in need of a getaway/breather.
Because, I’m only human after all.
We write in darkness. We love in alleys. We breathe into beige paper bags. Anything to mollify the confusion. Anything to simplify the math. I am beset, even by rest. And when I close my eyes, the world is still macaronic. I feel for the wolf about to be trapped in the landfill. I feel for the crab about to scamper from the net. I feel for humanity when the brightness of sick knowledge falls from exorbitant air. But remedies abound. There’s a remedy for everything. And a remedy for every remedy.
Life has been pretty much alright on average hee. Was feeling down a while ago, & yet the recent meetups have been the best remedy. It just makes me instantaneously better, worry-free, and felt like everything was … peaceful? And that everything just felt so right & that life was heading the right way. Can’t express how important I cherish physical meetups, because occasional outings definitely serve a deeper purpose than communicating via texts all day long. But of course the daily conversations are therapeutic in a different sense & I’m not complaining about those at all (albeit my mum having issues with me being on my phone so often whooops).
Can’t wait for the 15-day getaway to Korea in July! It feels so surreal this getaway is occurring in 25 days … to think we started the countdown from 91 days! In the blink of an eye, we will be off to Korea already hee. But first, these few remaining weeks will be busy since it’s pretty much filled up like craaaaazy. Busy, tiring, yet meaningful & definitely worth it. Already looking forward to more meet-ups, perks of summer break yaaaay (:
Anyway just wanted to post some thoughts hmm. Feels rather ironic how I realise you’re trying to get the attention, and yet I’m blatantly … ignoring. Subtly, but surely. Because it’s kind of pointless, it doesn’t mean anything to me so I’m not going to put on a facade & entertain whatever you’re saying. To put it bluntly, it’s a waste of my time, so stop trying. Just so you know, you’ll achieve nothing out of it, so why don’t you stop wasting your time too (: In short, screw off.
Foresee my next update to be on 9 June because it’s a … special & meaningful day :’) Can’t believe the 4-year anniversary is approaching soon already hee till then x
Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. But no matter what, they still happen.
Back from my Taiwan getaway, it was a really meaningful experience as a whole, and a good time for me to just abandon all the troubles/worries back here in the sunny island of SG. Made new friends (: Belicia & Elvira, it’s so cool ‘cos Elvira is my FASS senior (she’s one year older), hope that I will be able to see her around NUS in the coming months/years, and hope she still remembers me hee. Anyway, experienced a typhoon for the first time in my life, way too cool, no kidding. The pre-typhoon wind was horrendously strong & the rain was continuous, super heavy rain! It’s pretty exciting to experience a natural disaster, although it made my flight back to SG delayed by approximately 6 hours or so |: Glad to have gone to Taiwan for a holiday, that’s one item off my bucket list to check off (:
Spent some time reminiscing ’em old Chinese songs that we used to listen to waaaay long time ago, it’s amazing how certain songs from the past can still evoke all the emotions in me. My all time fave Chinese song: 彩虹 by Jay Chou. And another song’s 能不能勇敢说爱 by Angela (: Lyrics are really … awesome. No words can explain how much I love these two songs (: And those were the days when life was still carefree, and when I still listened to Chinese songs (well alright for a while hahah but my main was always Avril’s songs at that time).
I don’t really know what to post about hmm |: And this post seems so incoherent/lame hahah but whatever just felt like typing. Thought about an interesting/weird/random question earlier today. What exactly is the definition of friends/friendship? I’m not sure, but to me that fine line between determining if someone’s a friend or just an acquaintance has been stepped over recklessly much too often.
Do you consider someone you know as your friend automatically? Or merely an acquaintance? And how many of you out there are truly my friends. When we were young, being friends was so straightforward. Common interests, knowing what the other person’s fave singer/colour/etc was, and yeah you get my point. How many of you know what’s my fave quote/singer/colour/song? This made me really interested to find out how much people actually do know about me. Because that thin line between friendship & acquaintance is almost too similar to that between love and hate, isn’t it?
I guess at the end, it all boils down to the varied perceptions of friendship. It’s not good to claim everyone whom you know as your friends y’know |: Just saying.
Alright I’ll stop blabbering nonsense here I obviously aren’t in the right mind & thoughts ain’t processing properly x__x
Till then x
There have been regrets & things that I wish I didn’t do or those that I wish I had the courage to do. But that’s all in the past, and nobody has the power to turn the clock back in time.
With half of 2013 going by just like that, it hasn’t exactly been the best that I could imagine. May the second half of 2013 be better, maybe things will stop screwing up as badly as it might seem to.
Whatever it is, I’m pretty much looking forward to uni life (although the thought of being in a new environment scares me). May friendships continue to stay strong, and that I’ll meet worthy friends in uni that will last for a lifetime (:
Many thoughts going through my head, or rather opinions. Keeping them to myself (for now), don’t push me any further because I assure you, that a mega pissed off me isn’t exactly something you’d want to see -.-
Enough of ’em angst & issues …
On a happier note! BAP’s first new track title of three in their upcoming mini album – Coffee Shop. Really love the entire feel of it, so soothing & it’s definitely an apt song to plug into while having some me time (:
Sistar’s non track title – Crying. LOVE IT x1000 (: It’s a song I knew I had to download when I first heard it, and the lyrics are just so *o* I don’t even know how to express my thoughts but the song is just too good – especially Hyorin’s part it’s so captivating she’s just damn talented really.
Last but definitely not the least … INFINITE. Blockbuster level comeback, with Destiny which will be released on 16 July (: So excited to listen to the full song, the teaser has pretty much killed every Inspirit out there. Sounds really promising, and I’m guessing the lyrics will be WOWOWOW too hee (:
’cause you’re my destiny
Alright enough of Kpop stuff LOL.
Adelyn introduced a song to me recently, and I’m hooked onto it (: The Man Who Never Lied by Maroon 5, such an awesome song hee. So thankful for Adelyn’s taste in songs, recalling waaaay back from sec 1, I’ve practically LOVED all the song recommendations that she gave me. The Man Who Never Lied is really worth a listen, go check it out if you have time (I’m guessing you people out there have the time to do so since you’re actually reading this lame incoherent post LOL)
Anyway, I’m really excited for my upcoming Taiwan trip (: Although that means I’d prolly not be able to update from 6 July to 13 July (I’ll be back on 14 July) hmm |: As the title of this post – The Getaway. Yeah I could really use a getaway right now, to just chillax & enjoy myself, and away from Singapore for a while. To sort everything out I guess, and of course retail therapy hee (:
Shall end this post here & go prepare for tuition later, can’t wait to see my tutee!
x till then