The Great Escape

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Sometimes the best thing you can do is take a step back and give yourself a chance to breathe.

Feeling guilty for neglecting endlessparadigm but school has been really tiring/busy, hence the lack of updates. Taking the time now to review on the first few weeks since 2015 has started! Finally managing to catch a breather despite the growing pile of backlog that I’ve accumulated in the mere 4 weeks of school.

Officially began Y2S2 as a Psychology major, and ‘am reading quite a few interesting modules this semester (though they drive me crazy at times). Hoping for the semester to be a fulfilling one in terms of academics! Timetable is relatively okay, at least I’m satisfied with it apart from Tuesdays on even weeks which are simply h e l l. But I’ll get through it, the pains & sacrifices for better days in the week is ultimately worth it.

Sis turned 21 a few days ago on 1 Feb, happy (belated) 21st sis! ♥♥♥ It has been a good 21 years (and counting) being sisters, and somehow we still continue to amaze people around us about how we are born in the same year yet aren’t twins haha. Thankful for the sis to be there through different phases of my life, be it my lowest or highest moments. Definitely looking forward to more sister-times & late night chats & (currently) spazzing over the Song triplets together these days :’)

Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest steps of your life. Tip toe if you must – but take the step.

Earlier in January I made the decision to apply for Proj C.A.N. XII OC, in hopes of enriching my volunteering journey in NUS CSC by extending it beyond RVPs – and officially venturing into SPs as well. Thankful for the chance to be the sectreas, and ‘am pretty excited to meet the OC during our first meeting, hoping that socially awkward me will be able to survive it though haha. At least I’ll be camping behind my laptop furiously typing minutes so it’ll help alleviate some awkwardness in me (hopefully)!

During my interview, I got asked the primary question that all volunteers will probably come across at least once in their lives:

What does volunteerism mean to you?

Honestly felt that my answer during the interview wasn’t able to perfectly encapsulate the thoughts that I have pertaining to this question because of how nervous I was haha. Volunteerism is something that should come from your heart, and not for the sake of superficiality – for it will not only be detrimental to yourself, but your beneficiaries as well. Volunteerism is seen when you contribute your time & effort in various ways, even if it’s just spending time with your beneficiaries, without expecting any personal returns or gains, apart from satisfaction and happiness within. Volunteerism means to befriend your beneficiaries, getting to know them for who they really are, being able to see past the possible disadvantages they may have in their lives. Nobody is perfect, we might just  be slightly more privileged than others out in society, hence affording to render our services to alleviate their lives, be it in terms of physical items or simply inculcating values etc. Volunteerism shouldn’t be seen as something that’s noble or whatsoever, it shouldn’t be something that you choose to do just because you have some time to spare. Volunteerism should be nothing but sincerity, it should be something innate, where you don’t feel compelled or pressurized to do whatever you do. Because volunteering means as much to me as the importance of people understanding the spirit of volunteerism. So this, is what volunteerism means to me :’)

Visited Lola’s Cafe yesterday for the first time with A & Y! Haven’t had much time to indulge in cafe hopping, so I was really glad for the much needed midweek break that really served its purpose to recharge me (: Explored Sengkang area, and despite it being my playground when I was waaaay younger, I had little recollection of the area. As usual, spazzed like crazy girls at the void deck after collecting our Infinite H Fly Again albums with my fellow Inspirit hee. Can’t believe that it has been a good 2 years since I first did the whole “spazz at void deck while opening our albums/posters” things for Infinite H’s debut album :’) Congratulations to Infinite H for securing their first win as a subunit, may there be many more of such happy moments to come in the near future!

Thank you for all the belated presents for my 20th back in December last year, thoughtful well wishes/messages really mean a lot to me! And I realised that I’ve received 5 soft toy related presents … I guess that says something about how I should really try to grow up but whoooops I love them all haha they bring me comfort :’) Defo need to blog about this original quote from one of my best friends (you know who you are) in my birthday letter, just because you know how much of a sucker I am for quotes! So for remembrance’s sake:

Friends are like the weather, be it rain or shine, they would always be there for you.

I guess it’s time to head back to studying while waiting for my next lesson … can’t wait for lessons to end today, because it will yet again signify the end of the academic week! Thank goodness for free day Fridays, it makes my weekend seem so long (especially since my lecture on Monday starts at 6pm only) HAHA. Time to pick up the pace, determined to make things the best yet.

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In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn’t be the person we are. So just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories. But never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you’re going.

Till the next time, I’ll try to be more diligent in updating hee till then x

P.S. So excited for Avril Lavigne to release her Give You What You Like MV on 21 Feb, as well as dropping her new single Fly!!

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2014

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Happy NYE everyone! This post will be the first since I turned 20. And this post will be the last of 2014. Taking some time to type & reflect on the year, guess it’s sort of a review post of how life has been in 2014 🙂 Disclaimer: It’s really long & boring, but I choose to document all of it down for myself, as a keepsake memory. It has been a tough yet interesting journey thus far, and I’m thankful that it’s going to be over soon, for 2015 will definitely be filled with even more fun, excitement and challenges that I (hope I can and) will conquer 🙂

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Life as a psychology undergraduate in NUS

2014 marks the final sem of being a year 1, and proceeding on as a year 2 in uni. School hasn’t been easy on me, or perhaps I’m just a student inferior to others. But I truly enjoy what I study, and it’s nice to see the fruits of my hard labor in the results received recently – albeit not fantastic or impressive, but an improvement is all it takes to convince myself that it’s worth it. In 2014, I took modules that interest me the most (social + abnormal psychology). And this affirmed my dream of reading psychology :’)

Social psych taught me social skills & know-hows in daily interactions, it made me (slightly) more sensitive to people’s behaviors. I guess this is why people assume that psychologists can read minds, though it’s really more of just being more observant in certain things that others tend to neglect. Whatever it is, I still have a looong way to go 🙂

Abnormal psychology taught me the art of empathy, yet at the same time to be less judgmental. It’s really important that we do not label people with disorders as “the person with depression” or whatsoever, but to accept & view them as who they are, for they are only humans who are less fortunate than others to be diagnosed with psychological disorders. And I finally got the chance to visit IMH through my course of study, which makes me really grateful 🙂 It has provided me with fresh insights & what-nots, definitely will continue to volunteer @ IMH if I have the chance!

Overall, despite the hectic schedules as an undergraduate, where I experienced my first double 8am lectures in uni (which I will avoid to the best of my abilities from now on), it has been a fulfilling year in terms of studies 🙂

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Life as a volunteer in CSC

2014 marks the year where I officially involved myself in volunteering once again, after a one-year hiatus in 2013. The first major event was the Adventure Camp held in June. Planning for the camp while rendering my services as the Secretary in the committee taught me loads of things, especially since this is the first time I’ve planned for a camp that’s held in Pulau Ubin. A foreign location naturally brings about more difficulties & uncertainties, but the camp made me revisit Guiding skills that I’ve missed, which makes me really happy because it brought back fond memories of Guiding with the pitching of tents & firelighting for outdoor cooking 🙂

Then came the biggest decision I’ve made in 2014 – accepting the role of Vice Chairperson of Youth Rangers. It was a really tough choice & I was in a constant debate between acceptance & rejection of the role, for I wasn’t sure if I could handle the responsibilities that came with the title. After consulting & considering the various advice from friends, I decided to give it a try. I don’t regret the choice, albeit knowing that perhaps there might be someone out there who has better capabilities for this role. Because this choice has ultimately shaped & steered my volunteering journey to a different one – one that is more meaningful than all the volunteering experiences I’ve ever had in my life.

Being the VC has its pros and cons. For one, I’m really glad to have been given this opportunity, & it has led me to meet an awesome RVP Team AY14/15, especially the other Children/Youth sector chairpersons 🙂 It has also allowed me to be more involved in the behind-the-scenes of volunteering, ranging from planning of events to attending countless meetings & gaining new insights from other fellow chairpersons. I can’t emphasize how much importance volunteering takes in my heart, and it’s so so important to me that people volunteer because they have the genuine passion & heart to do so. It’s obvious when their reasons for volunteering are otherwise, but sometimes I choose not to say anything because well, it’s their choice, and as long as they don’t jeopardize anything, I guess I’m not in the position to judge or whatsoever.

I foresee changes in the future, in YR, and I’m hoping for the changes to be a good one. Since I officially accepted my certificate of appointment on 4 Sept 2014, I promise to make the best out of this AY, as the VC of YR. May things be smooth sailing from now on, and I’m confident to say that I’m no longer who I was in the past. The volunteering experience thus far has shaped me greatly and I’m thankful for that.

It’s really so heartwarming to see the youths acknowledging & being happy because of our presence & commitments, the fun & enjoyment that they display during sessions are what drives me to continue pushing on even if it’s a tough time ahead. Because as long as we have impacted & made a difference in contributing to the lives of our youths, I know that all the hard work is more than worth it 🙂

Apart from YR, I’ve semi-involved myself as a volunteer in GAW during the wish adoption + party phases 🙂 I had the opportunity to learn basic Braille during a workshop @ iC2 Prephouse, it was a really eye-opening experience! Attended 2 GAW Parties (iC2 Prephouse + BSS), and I’ve learnt a lot from both parties. Interacting with children of different backgrounds, with children who have slight disabilities in terms of sight, it really made me feel much more humble while seeing the amount they had to offer despite all the setbacks going on in their lives.

One semester left as a member of YR Comm, & I’m going to make sure things get better, and that it’s the best yet. Looking forward to the continuation of rendering my services in CSC, as volunteering continues to play a significant role in my journey to self-discovery & fulfillment! 🙂

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Life as a tourist in Korea

This is definitely one of the highlights of 2014. My first independent 15-day holiday trip overseas with friends! Thank you to the best travelling buddies I could ever ask for, I really love how our travelling styles & preferences etc all complement each other so well, and that the trip concluded so memorably without any arguments or whatsoever. I had the best time of my life in Korea, and am already looking forward to future trips together with this awesome bunch! In these 15 days, I’ve been to Jeju + Seoul, and it was a really interesting experience.

Hobo-ed at Incheon Airport overnight for the first time in my life, and it was such a historical moment where we coincidentally managed to meet various k-idols (including our bias group INFINITE!!!!) while hobo-ing overnight. What a pleasant surprise it was, I’ll never forget how it felt omg :’) Aaaand I met my bias Dongwoo’s parents by visiting their family restaurant! Thank you my dearest friends for scheduling that into our triip & not giving up despite getting lost for a while in an attempt to find the restaurant (there was even a slight drizzle)! It was simply … magical HAHA. Conversing with Dongwoo’s dad, and him being so enthusiastic about taking a picture with us that he even made sure that Dongwoo’s poster will be captured in the picture! And Dongwoo’s mom personally feeding us (although the spicy octopus really made me have legit tears), such awesome fan service that his parents gave to fans (especially since they knew we were not local fans but international fans!) I’ll definitely head back to their family restaurant the next time I go to Korea, and sincerely appreciate the warm hospitality that they served us with!

From randomly following this rookie group at Myeongdong whom we initially didn’t know of (and subsequently found out they were B.I.G.), to all the crazy shopping & fun times in Jeju/Seoul, thank you to Yumin, Sheryin & Amanda for the memorable Korea trip 🙂 Here’s to more #guesswhatadventures to come in the future!

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Life as a music fanatic

In 2014, I attended 2 concerts! Avril Lavigne Live in Singapore 2014 on 15 Feb, and The Red Tour by Taylor Swift on 12 June.

After being a Black Star since primary school days, I finally got to enjoy Avril Lavigne’s concert live for the first time ever! Made sure to get the best tickets with the best view, and saying that Avril is awesome irl is a major understatement omg. Can’t wait for her next album to be out, since it has been almost 2 years since she released her fifth self-titled studio album. Her sincerity & confidence in her performance really deserves the utmost admiration from all her black stars indeed, may her songs continue to serve as my therapy in the future! Taylor Swift was incredible live as well, and her stage performances & entertainment level is insane. Thankful to have gotten the chance to attend both concerts this year 🙂

I’m hoping for Lana Del Rey to come for a tour in Singapore in the future! Her album Ultraviolence released earlier this year has been on replay for the longest time ever, there’s just something about the songs by Lana Del Rey that is so addictive.

Infinite released 2 albums this year, Season 2 + Season 2 Repackage, and both albums are nicely sitting on my shelf hee. Infinite songs are definitely my favorite in Kpop, and Last Romeo + Back (both of their title tracks this year) literally blew my mind away. I really love how much sincerity they put in each of their performances on stage, where they actually sing live despite their dance being really tough & energy draining. Definitely going to continue supporting Infinite by being their loyal Inspirit! It has been said that Infinite H will be having a comeback in January, Infinite in February, and Sunggyu with his second solo album some time next year. Hence, I foresee 2015 being an awesome year for Infinite already, may all their group/unit/solo comebacks be successful! 🙂

Amidst all the songs from specific singers, I’m glad to have stumbled upon loads of other random English songs with lyrics that resonate deeply within me, that I can relate to, and that are applicable for different moods etc.

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Life as who I am

In 2014, I’ve learnt a lot and gained loads of valuable experience, to continue shaping my future for who I’m meant to be. One recurring topic is undoubtedly “friends”, as I realized how people seem to loosely classify (& I used to be guilty of that as well) acquaintances as friends. This year, I’ve realized who my true friends are, who are the friends meant to stick around, and who aren’t the sincere ones. This year, I had the chance of several friendships resurfacing, from years ago. And I’m really glad it happened, because it does feel good & reassuring to be able to reminisce & share freely about things, to people who were once in my life (and have re-entered thankfully).

Lost friendships might be hard to revive, but for what’s it worth, the effort put in by both parties will definitely keep it going. I really like how it isn’t awkward at all despite losing contact for years 🙂 I guess this goes to show the genuine core of what friendship should entail 🙂

And I’m more than grateful to those whom I’ve been talking on a regular/daily basis. No need for mentions, you guys know who you are. Thank you for tolerating all the nonsense & enduring all my rants/frustrations etc. It hasn’t been easy, I’m sure of that, but thanks for sticking around :’) It means so much to me. Old is gold indeed, I wouldn’t trade you guys for any other, not now not ever.

Living life as a 19 y-o and turning 20 so so recently, I’ve grown to notice the amount of independence needed in my life. Things aren’t the same as what they were when I was young, safe in my comfort zone & protected from all ’em unpleasant happenings. But this is a learning & growing process. As we make mistakes, we learn from them, we rebound, and get back up stronger than before.

This year continued to touch me with endearing birthday wishes/messages, all of which I read well & will hold the words close to my heart :’) Thank you for all the birthday wishes/dedications, spending time to meet me & what-nots, planning surprises, and all the handwritten birthday letters! For I’m still old-fashioned when it comes to this, but handwritten letters really hold so much significance than any other. So thank you to everyone and yes, I’m finally 20! 🙂

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May 2015 be a better year for everyone, with less tragedies happening & more happiness spread throughout. Going to make a 2015 new year resolution since I’m turning 21 next year, but probably not going to post it up since it’s more private haha. First two weeks of 2015 really packed & hence ensuring that the beginning of 2015 will be a blast, may it be a meaningful & insightful year ahead, where everyone gets what they wish/aim for :’) Put behind whatever unhappiness or grudges incurred in 2014, and welcome 2015 with a fresh start, an open mind, and a hopeful heart!

With this, I conclude my final post on endlessparadigm in 2014. Till the next time we meet, in 2015 x

20152015, bring it on. I’m ready.

Infinite 4th

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As the clock strikes midnight on 9 June 2014, twitter has been spammed/flooded with tweets pertaining to this special day. As the hashtag trends suggest, #INFINITE4th or #4YearsWithInfinite, today marks the day where it has been exactly 4 years since Infinite officially debuted as a boy group under Woolliment.

Browsing through all the tweets, amidst the really hilarious/epic ones, many Inspirits took the chance to reminisce about Infinite’s journey throughout this 4 years. With their 4th anniversary comes many memories resurfaced, ranging from the pranks pulled during Sesame Player (really miss those days), to their first win with Be Mine on 1 Sept 2011, & to the closely-knit relationship between these 7 boys who come together as Infinite.

Albeit not being an Inspirit right from the start since their debut on 9 June 2010, I’m more than certain I’ll stay as an Inspirit till the end. No scratch that, there won’t be an end, it’ll be forever :’)

Once you become an Inspirit, you will be Inspirit forever. We will also be Infinite forever! – Dongwoo

Never has this quote been more apt. In the recent months, there have been many … issues popping up. Setbacks, disappointments & what-nots. But it’s the true Inspirits who will be sticking with them forever till the end of time, isn’t it? 2014 hasn’t exactly been very smooth with Last Romeo promotions having mixed reviews, & how Inspirits are all dejected by the mysterious case of lacking in SNS points despite trending in so many countries hmm.

It’s really heartwarming to see how Inspirits are all united as one, coming together for the (almost) daily tweet parties just to get #인피니트 trending :’) Personally feel that Inspirits are more laid back & chill as compared to other fandoms I’ve witnessed, so the effort put in for LR promotions this time really touched me a lot. We failed, Sunggyu apologised to say it wasn’t Inspirits but rather Infinite who was lacking. We cry. We learn. We get back up on our feet, we try even harder than before. If we fail a million times, we get back up a million and one times. Because you know what? As chill as we may seem, Inspirits do not know how to give up. Because we know deep down in our hearts that despite Infinite constantly saying winning isn’t of priority, we know they deserve the recognition, the title of champions, the physical award that crowns them as winners, because they truly deserve it.

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Their sincerity on every single stage performance, singing live & practising for so many hours a day, just to make sure they deliver nothing but perfection. 4 years since debut, and still so humble, constantly reminding themselves of their rookie mindsets, to not get too confident or proud, to always cherish & be sincere in what they do. How rare is it for k-idols to be hand in hand, delivering 90 degree bows to thank their fans, to say “thank you” for possibly a million times during the encore after a music show win, to put the blame on themselves for lacking & hoping to cheer Inspirits up, when we were the ones who were lacking instead.

Our name, Infinite, means “limitless”. We never put a restriction on our possibilities, and we will always improve. – Sunggyu

Still find it amazing  how after all these years, Infinite is the first k-idol group to attract my attention, and make me fall head over heels for them. 7 different charms, 7 different personalities, fitting together perfectly like puzzle pieces, this is what Infinite is :’) I’ve only been an Inspirit for 1.5 years (& counting), comparing to all my other Inspirit friends, it’s not as long. But thank you Infinite for gifting me with an Inspirit family, because such friendships are difficult to come by. Infinite serving as a common topic/bond between Inspirits, laughter//tears//smiles//going crazy//spazzing, all these wouldn’t have been as meaningful without the bunch of hardcore Inspirits I have in my life. And I sincerely thank Infinite for that :’) thank you for the colours added in my life.

131005 will forever be etched in my heart as I got the privilege to witness Infinite’s charms in real life @ Singapore Indoor Stadium. OGSSG was a one-of-a-kind experience, my first time being in the mosh pit. OGSSG served a greater purpose than just a mere concert delivered to fans. It was the connection, the bonding between Infinite x Inspirit, as well as Inspirits x Inspirits :’) How proud of OT7 to successfully hold a World Tour in 2013. Patiently waiting for Infinite to be back in SG for another concert, & no matter how long it takes, we will wait.

The charm of Infinite is that each of the 7 member have their own clear and unique tastes. But we’re also like a combined set of presents. If you fall for one member, we’re sure you’ll fall for the rest of us. It’d be so nice if fans fought over who they liked more. If we continue to think preciously of our fans and work hard to improve ourselves maybe someday people will remember us. – Infinite

 

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Looking at all these, with the point dances clearly shown on each picture, yet another reason to be proud of Infinite & their perfectly synchronised dance moves. So as we take a trip down memory lane, from 9 June 2010 to 9 June 2014, let’s all hope for many more years to come, and just like what Infinite said in their 4-year anni self cam video, let’s all celebrate the 10th, 20th, 30th, 40th anniversary together :’) Because this love will last to infinity & beyond.

Infinite to me? Something I cannot live without: Family. – Sungjong

 

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Never been more proud to be part of this Pearl Metal Gold Ocean :’) Once again, Happy 4th Anniversary to Infinite & Inspirits, here’s to many more anniversaries to come x

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Night & Day

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Imma love you night & day

I love you 24 hours, thank you for being you

It’s amazing every time I see you, you’re so beautiful

The sun rises high during the day, the moon rises at night

Because I will always protect you

Above lyrics quoted from Night & Day by Wheesung, it’s an amazing song that caught my ears almost immediately (click on the title of the song to be directed to the song on YT!), really worth a listen (‘: The lyrics are so nice, the melody is so captivating. Personally my favorite melody in this song is when he sings “I love you 24 hours” *o* 

Anyway … finally got my hands on INFINITE’s Season 2 album, thanks to Q for ordering it for us!! 

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By far my favorite album design of Infinite among the albums that I have, and sooo happy I managed to get Dongwoo’s photocard! The feeling of seeing your bias photocard is really magical, and no need for trading or whatsoever hee. Gonna cherish this album well, looooove the hidden track. Trollim as usual, making us wait for approximately 3 minutes of silence after Track 13 on the album before the hidden track plays. Not complaining though, Hey Hello is such a worthy hidden track, mega addictive hee.

It’s quite amusing to see Inspirits all pumped up & active for this comeback, normally Inspirits are more chill/laid back. But this time it’s different, and it feels great to be part of this fandom. The pure bliss when they snagged the trophy yesterday during their Show Champion comeback stage, finally we get to trend #LastRomeo1stWin :’) M countdown later, hoping for second win! Because the boys deserve it, live singing for a dance performance for every stage, how they still sound so amazing with MR removed, it shows how much they have improved along the way (:

Last Romeo is a worthy title track imo, although some people think otherwise. It was an immediate like for me, took some others a few listens before it grew on them. Click on the title for the link to the MV, give it a chance, give it a listen, you won’t regret (: Rosinante + Memories are the non-title tracks that are my preferences in the album hee. 

Alright enough with the k-pop stuff hmm … life has been pretty good to me so far this holidays! Finally got time to play the piano again & read boooooks. The song that I’ve been playing repeatedly on the piano these days is none other than I Remember, simply love the melody & lyrics/vocals in this song that I felt compelled to learn haha. And reading books! divergent series amidst other random books hee. 

And of course meet-ups with friends & what-nots. Busy busy, but all worth it + makes life less boring! Physical meet-ups >>> chatting via online messaging etc after all.

Shall stop the update here (seems abrupt whoops), till the next time friends x

What means the most

Sony MDR World Wide Performer – INFINITE

Best Male Group – INFINITE

And the two pictures above depicted the defining moments as an Inspirit during MAMA 2013, held in Hong Kong on 22 Nov 2013. ‘was overwhelmed with feels while watching MAMA 2013 last night amidst all the insane spazzing with Inspirits/friends (‘: currently still feeling the bliss & insane amount of happiness, hence I’m going to do a short update before heading back to study!

Infinite performed alongside Troublemaker & it was a really good performance, although the storyline was lame/totally unnecessary imo. Infinite performed BTD + Destiny, it was pure awesomeness & hotness from the 7 boys *o* However … the cameraman needs to get his priorities right – what’s the point of showing reactions/views of other idols when Infinite (and also other idols) is performing?! And what’s the point of having long distance shots – like oh let’s play try-to-spot-the-performers game?! It was so ridiculous to the point we were literally fuming mad ugh, especially when they cut off the ending. Anyway, what’s important is that Infinite did such an awesome job in their performance, considering how tired they must be after rushing from country to country for their OGS World Tour *o* Felt so damn :’)

And the first award that Infinite received was the Sony MDR World Wide Performer :”’) Feeling so proud that their efforts, sweat and tears have been recognised. They really do deserve this award – I mean they are on a World Tour now!! It came as a shock initially ‘cos we didn’t know of the existence of this award but … mega spazzing (‘: And they mentioned Dongwoo’s birthday + Dongwoo spoke *o* So so so so proud & happy for them! Nothing beats having their sincerity recognised.

From then on, our Inspirits WA convo was just occasionally spazzing & occasionally dissing *coughs*. ‘cos we thought that Best Male Group would be some other group that I shan’t mention, so when they were giving that award we were all just “come on please get over and done with this already ugh” ……… until the prize presenter said INFINITE. I literally shrieked out WHAT!?. That single moment was infinite (no pun intended) (okay maybe it was intended) :’) Once again, it was the best moment of the night for both Infinite & Inspirits. On a sidenote, I think it’s so disheartening that a certain rookie group literally displayed their unhappiness & disdain on their faces upon realisation that they weren’t the recipients of Best Male Group. It was just really .. rude ugh.

22 Nov 2013, a day that was really happening. It was Dongwoo’s birthday as well, & #24thDongziziDAY was trending 1st worldwide + in 6 countries ^^ Winning the 2 awards during MAMA 2013 came off as a surprise for Infinite & Inspirits, but it must be the best present that Dongwoo can receive on his birthday :’)

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Mandatory as a Dongwoo-biased to do a picture collage on Dongziziday :’) & seeing all the genuine smiles on their faces despite being tired & all last night, it was in that instance, where I knew that, choosing to join this Inspirits family is possibly one of the best decisions made thus far.

Shall end this post here and continue mugging, feeling really much better right now! Ending off with a new-found quote yesterday, and this is gon get me through the tough days from now on:

The moment when you’re about to give up is generally a moment right before a miracle happens.” – Jang Dong Woo

Happiness, thankful, blissful; this love is infinite x

This love is infinite.

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Currently suffering from post-concert depression like all the SG Inspirits who went for OGSSG yesterday. I’ll be posting about it while it’s still fresh in my memory, because 5 Oct 2013 is a day I will never want to forget in my life (: It was such an amazing night, literal perfection & I’m dying with my feels right now omg. Note: All/most pictures here are unedited because I don’t have the time to make collages etc yet, I really need to post before doing anything else!

Firstly, really thankful to Qijin & Yongen for the sacrifice they made – to start queuing overnight, just so all of us get to be near the front of the tagging. Grace & Crystal took over at 6.30am, Meina, Yumin, Simin & me took over at 9.30am. It’s such small actions and sacrifices that mean so much in my life, and that I am so appreciative of (‘: Especially since the weather wasn’t kind – it was raining/thundering so badly ): 

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Met Yumin & Simin at 9am @ KLP to stock up on food (which we couldn’t finish in the end & had to throw since we couldn’t bring them into the concert venue). Then we took over Grace & Crystal, Yumin Simin Meina & me were excited yet tired/bored (alright maybe I was the bored one but stillllll). Chatted a bit with the friendly Inspirits in the queue behind us (: It’s so nice to all share the love for Infinite. At 11am, we were moved downstairs to a sheltered yet humid area for the official queue for wrist tagging. Continued queuing & Meina made her super chio Myungyeol board!! 

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At approximately 10.30am, Meina & me decided to go upstairs for some fresh air. The sun was so bright it was scorching hot upstairs ): Samsung was blasting Infinite songs, and that was the first moment of yesterday where I really felt like this was so surreal, literally felt all the excitement & just like “WHOA.” (: So many Inspirits around, I may not know most of them, all I know is that all of us were there so early for one reason – we love Infinite. 

Wrist tagging at 1pm, and we went to KLP for lunch & to chill after that (: Went back to 3pm to collect our glow-in-the-dark Infinite tattoos that we preordered from a fanbase. Meina & me decided to lay the tattoos out to let them absorb sunlight since the fanbase said it needs to absorb more sunlight in order to glow better … so we did this.

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I really like the design of the tattoos although they weren’t really good (mine dropped off approximately 10 minutes into the concert). Close up picture of the tattoo! “I just can’t stop loving you ~ cause you’re my destiny ~”

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And there were many different fan projects, different slogans & banners that we received. And also Infinite Inspirit Stickies *o* Which were in Pearl Metal Gold, aka Infinite’s official colour YEY (: And received the lightsticks + file that we pre-ordered from official merchandise. This picture basically sums up most of the stuff that I got from yesterday. Image

Pearl metal gold balloon|white lights (for white light project)|Infinite stickies|Dongwoo file|banners|slogans|my wrist taggg|Sistic ticket|Dongwoo card (from Qijin)|Dongwoo sticker (from Qijin)

The lightsticks are really pretty, one of it has Sunggyu + Dongwoo + Woohyun’s signatures, the other has Hoya + Sungyeol + Myungsoo + Sungjong’s signature! Close up picture of the lightsticks because they are too pretty. Pearl metal gold ftw (:

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I shall … fast forward to 5pm! 5pm was when we went to queue for entry to the moshpit! All 10 of us (Yumin Simin Meina Qijin Ziyin Ziyin’s sis Grace Crystal Yongen me) are in Pen B, tag numbers 179-188. Had bag check & everything, ran into the mosh pit & I remember as we were running I was shrieking to Yumin “I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING WE’RE REALLY INSIDE ALREADY!!” 

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This was how close we were to the stage can you believe it!!! Third row of moshpit from the front, it was such an amazing HD experience throughout the whole night although the girls in front of me were so tall AND they wore platforms/heels ….. I was watching between their heads for most of the concert LOL. The two screens at the sides of the indoor stadium were playing Infinite MVs after MVs, the MV that was playing when we first went in was White Confession, and coincidentally it was my fave scene (Dongwoo & Sunggyu with the toy soldiers) of the MV *o* all ’em excited Inspirits (including us) started singing along/doing the fanchants, and SHRIEKING when our bias appears on the screen. I nearly died when they played Special Girl MV, highed with fellow lamey hee (: The MVs kept playing all the way till 7.30pm when the concert officially started. When the lights blacked out, we all screamed at the top of our lungs. Because …

it.was.really.happening.infinite.is.going.to.appear.in.front.of.our.eyes.

!Disclaimer: Whatever that I post about the concert isn’t in chronological order because I’m too overwhelmed with feels now to remember the order. I’ll just type whatever comes to my mind. 

Destiny MV version A started playing, so exclusive since it wasn’t officially released by woolliment yet, hence watching version A for the first time in HD *o* waaaay better than watching via fancams from other past OGS concerts!! I really can’t wait for version A to be released I need to download it omg ):

And the starting VCR was so awesome *o* I really love the entire plot/storyline of the concert, all 7 of them looked so damn freaking cool – and I swear that’s a major understatement. The moment when Infinite appeared, my heart died for that moment. After oogling at them for so long from videos & pictures, they are actually right in front of our eyes. In real life. HD experience. Infinite perfection. 7 hot boys omg I really died. And it was easy to differentiate everyone just from their silhouettes, how cool is that hee (: 

REQUEST. The song that Infinite sang (& even recorded an MV) for promoting Samsung! I really love the song it sounds so happy & hyper although the lyrics aren’t as flattering, it’s pretty sad ): But omg watching Infinite perform Request was so woohoo ^^ Request is a song that can be REALLY addictive (Just like all of their songs actually LOL), the dance is so cool because they focus on their hands/wrists while cheographing the dance, so they can promote the new Samsung galaxy gear watch (is that what it’s called). So happy that OGSSG was after Request was released, so we get to watch them perform it in real life during OGS!!

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Can you identify this dance ^^ Not difficult to if you’re an Inspirit hee (:

All the stages were literally jaw-dropping and I was smiling so widely throughout the entire concert despite being shoved around by violent fangirls (and fanboys) at the moshpit area. All of Infinite dances really live up to their name (y) Super awesome and breathtaking and powerful and synchronized and perfect *o* I really love Paradise & their hip thrusts soooooo powerful (especially Dongwoo’s) (I might be biased HAHA), I can’t believe I actually watched Paradise live omg it’s my all-time favorite Infinite song (‘: 

And another stage that I died in. No prizes for guessing what it was ….. *drumroll* SPECIAL GIRL. Yumin and me practically went crazy it was soooo good Special Girl was one of the stages I was looking forward to the most ^^ Forever shipping yadong I love all the yadong moments during the concert when they chest-bumped/fist-bumped/interacted with each other!!! And Special Girl just sounds so different & much better live (‘: My eyes were glued to Dongwoo throughout and occasionally drifted to Hoya of course. But Dongwoooooo omg really killed me with the Special Girl stage & the dance break!!! I will never get tired of watching Yadong perform Special Girl, really like never ever omg. I screamed like a crazy fangirl everytime it was Dongwoo’s parts HAHA whooooops. I couldn’t control!!

Myungsoo’s solo stage was just … whoa. It was the only performance throughout the entire concert where the entire audience was dead quiet and just enjoying him sing Love You Like You, I was so mesmerized by Myungsoo during his solo stage (and many other instances during the concert as well like when he stripped Dongwoo HAHA). It’s really not difficult to tell why Myungsoo is one of the more popular ones of Infinite, his intense gaze feels as though it can burn through your eyes, it’s so electrifying and seductive (LOL). And his interactions with the huge life-sized bear literally drove all Inspirits (including me) crazy, especially when he kissed the bear and looked so shy/embarrassed IT WAS SO DAMN FREAKING ADORABLE.

Really love all the solo stages, like Woohyun singing Beautiful his stage was so cute with the push-cart full of toys & the outfits etc, it almost seemed as though it was like a mini musical!!! Woohyun’s vocals are really powerful, his voice is so soothing & nice to listen to omg (‘: And Sunggyu!!! 60 Seconds omg one of my fave songs as well, another powerhouse for vocals, Sunggyu is so adorable I think he’s getting more adorable as time passes, evidently from all the variety that he has been on to ^^ And Sungyeol + Sungjong DJ skills = WAY TOO COOL. Everyone was immersed in the clubbing like atmosphere due to the DJs yeollie & jong HAHA I heard two different girls saying they suddenly felt like they were clubbing LOL. But their DJ skills really daebak (y) I swear Infinite is so damn talented with looks voice dance talent, for the infinite time I’m saying this, Infinite is infinite perfection (wasn’t that punny) (just say yes)

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Before the daaaawnnn ~ Before the daaawwwn ~ Hee. Anyway something else I remembered. It was INSANE watching Inconvenient Truth MV for the first time, during OGSSG omg. I knew that they would be showing it to us but … I wasn’t mentally prepared (even though I watched a brief fancam of it already). It sounds weird to say this but, Infinite is so damn pervy in the MV, especially Hoya omg LOL. (And my iTunes just shuffled to Inconvenient Truth HAHA whoa) All Infinite members had intimate interactions/actions with the female lead who had a super good figure omg. And I kept hitting Yumin (I’M SORRY HAHA) everytime it was Dongwoo’s scenes with her because it was so omg DONGWOO BEING SO TOUCHY/FLIRTY/SUGGESTIVE ACTIONS WITH THE FEMALE LEAD IN THE MV it really killed me so badly HAHA okay but overall the MV was super amusing (Myungsoo was being such a gentleman and took off his suit to cover the girl because her dress is so damn freaking short it revealed 99.999999% of her legs (which resulted in pervy Infinite HAHA). Woollim please release/upload the official MV for Inconvenient Truth, watching it once in HD isn’t satisfying enough ):

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OGSSG reaffirmed that my ultimate bias is really nobody else but Dongwoo. Dongwoo, the wildest, craziest, funniest, full of random ideas, super energetic, so smiley, and most angelic member in Infinite (‘: I know I prolly repeated this a lot of times but I will say it again – it feels too surreal seeing Dongwoo in real life yesterday, it still feels like a dream to me.

“I’m the moodmaker Dongwoo~” 

And that was how he first introduced himself at the beginning of OGSSG yesterday ^^ WAY TOO CUTE. Dongwoo was full of energy and kept doing random things like small dances & smiling/giggling to himself, it feels so nice to know he’s prolly enjoying the concert as much as I am enjoying as an audience (:

Dongwoo was directly in front of my area during the two ballads Mom & Still I Miss You, I swear it seemed as though it was eye contact throughout the entire two songs (I know it’s not possible but don’t burst my bubble and let me live in self-denial please) I was just staring at him for both songs throughout, my eyes didn’t drift away at all – literally. I was just immersed and so captivated, even when it wasn’t his part & the spotlight wasn’t on him, I just kept staring at him, I got so lost in thoughts and all I could think about was how much I really adore Dongwoo. I just realise I sound creepy ): But trust me those moments are so magical – everytime I close my eyes now I can still picture Dongwoo and his direct gaze at me (I said don’t burst my bubble okay HAHA). It was as though time stopped and the world stopped spinning and nothing else mattered at all but Dongwoo (‘: It’s so surreal seeing my ultimate bias in real life, it felt like a dream I never want to wake up from. Last night was waaay to surreal, way too awesome. 

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And this picture shows Infinite giving their more-than-90-degrees bow to Inspirits (‘: I love how sincere they are, going to all the different corners of the stage to bow to the fans, while holding hand-in-hand (: Such a sincere and real group, how can anyone not fall in love with them omg (‘:

“60 seconds is all I need for this story, you came into my heart, I don’t doubt it.” – 60 Seconds, Infinite

I realised how apt this sentence is right now, perfectly describing how I even entered this fandom in the first place. All it took was a minute for me to gain interest in Dongwoo, and thanks to Yumin & Meina, I got successfully inducted into the wonderful Inspirit family. And I don’t regret it one bit.

Shall wrap up my super long post with the words that Dongwoo said (in English!!) for his individual ending message for SG Inspirits. 

“This is our very first time to hold our concert in Singapore. I’m so happy, hehe. Now we get to spend more time together. Tonight is very special. Thank you for coming tonight, Singapore babies. Thank you so much, and you make us put our heart into the show. I will be back soon so don’t forget to keep loving us. We always have concert for you. Thank you. See ya!” – Jang Dong Woo, Infinite

Yes Dongwoo, I’ll never forget to keep loving Infinite. And the same can be said for all ’em true Inspirits out there. And Infinite you promised to be back here again soon, please hold true to that promise I really want to see Infinite live in Singapore again ): It was a special night indeed, no question about it (‘:

Basically I really just let all the emotions out and screamed throughout the entire concert (my throat really hurts now). Because Infinite is worth it – no wait. Infinite is more than worth it. Infinite is worth the sacrifices, the screaming, the smiles, the tears, the pain, they’re worth everything. 

And now all I feel is the emptiness, knowing it might possibly be years before I see these 7 boys in real life again. That thought makes me really depressed ): I didn’t expect myself to have such intense feelings but I really can’t help it. Looking at the pictures/videos taken, all I can say is that I am proud to be an Inspirit, proud to say I’ll be faithful to Infinite (or yeollie will “chase me to the end of the world” as he said), and I will never forget about how magical 5 October 2013 (Saturday) was.

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Final bow of OGSSG by Infinite; Final picture of this post; Final words of this recount. Of the magical night, OGSSG 051013. I know that there’s a million more stuff lacking in my recount, but it’s all kept safely and securely in my heart, I will never forget this experience (: 

My love is Infinite. And I’m more proud than anything to be an Inspirit (‘: Because Infinite and Inspirit comes as one.