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27 September marks a very special day for all Little Black Stars. Exactly 30 years ago, our inspiration was born on this very day 🙂

#Happy30thBirthdayAvril 

There’s just something about the lyrics/melody of songs of Avril’s that resonates within me, I literally LOVE every.single.song. There are many people who claim that the standard of her songs are deteriorating or whatsoever but I strongly beg to differ – just look at the songs from her latest self-composed self-titled album Avril Lavigne, it’s perfection as usual :’)

Life is like a rolling coaster. Live it. Be happy. Enjoy life.
– Avril Lavigne

And so … she has released 5 studio albums thus far, & I’ve dedicated the entire day to listen to her songs, to commemorate this special day! (On a sidenote, I’m SO jealous of all ’em fans who get to join Avril’s birthday party @ Vegas today omg 😦 )

Let Go (2002)
Under My Skin (2004)
The Best Damn Thing (2007)
Goodbye Lullaby (2011)
Avril Lavigne (2014)

I sincerely can’t wait for her to release her sixth, seventh, eighth & counting studio albums hee. It will probably be years before her next album is out, but definitely worth the wait. I’ve waited for 3 years for Avril Lavigne to be released, I’m willing to wait another 3 years for the next album :’) & so thankful that as a Little Black Star, I finally got the chance to enjoy her concert & see her in real life on 15 Feb 2014 this year, for The Avril Lavigne Tour. I was so, so overwhelmed with feels, literally.

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Why should I care what other people think of me? I am who I am. And who I wanna be.
– Avril Lavigne

Avril Lavigne will ALWAYS be my inspiration, and her songs are the ones I can fall back on whenever I’m sad/happy/lonely/blissful or whatever. & they strive as my motivation to carry on & keep holding on, no matter how tough things might get in life. There’s just so many things that I want to say but words will NEVER be able to encapsulate my admiration for Avril, from how she’s so persistent in her own personality & doesn’t conform to society, to the fact that she’d rather spend time trying to conceive tears to make her Wish You Were Here MV seem more real/touching (& hell did it evoke ’em strong emotions within me).

Saw a Little Black Star caption this on instagram, it’s so true indeed:

30 years ago my hero, my inspiration, my saviour was born ❤ Your music was there for me when I need someone there. When I would have a bad day, your music would save me from slipping away from my mind. When I was happy your upbeat music would make me smile even more. When I needed someone to understand you let me know that everybody hurts someday and it’s okay. When I was weak you told me to keep holding on. Words can’t honestly tell you how much you’ve gotten me through. Without your beautiful, unique and special voice I don’t know how I would survive. We’re all proud of you.

That’s why we save your photos
We save your videos
We save your music
Because you saved our lives.

(cr: avrillavigne_1984 on insta)

And I really wanna share my all-time favorite, Innocence, from The Best Damn Thing album in 2011 🙂 The lyrics of Innocence will always be my favorite, I guess it’s an ideal that I aim to attain in life someday. & have I mentioned how therapeutic it is to play Innocence on the piano? (‘:

P.S. There isn’t an actual MV for this song (sadly), but this version has been really, really famous & garnering a lot of views; it’s a compilation/snippets from her various MVs, worth the watch!

Happy 30th Birthday once again to my eternal inspiration, Avril Ramona Lavigne ❤ x

Ending off with the full lyrics of Innocence.

Waking up I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life and now it’s so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn’t change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don’t go away
I need you now
And I’ll hold on to it
Don’t you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it’s so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I’m so happy here
It’s so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn’t change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don’t go away
I need you now
And I’ll hold on to it
Don’t you let it pass you by

It’s a state of bliss, you think you’re dreaming
It’s the happiness inside that you’re feeling
It’s so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It’s a state of bliss, you think you’re dreaming
It’s the happiness inside that you’re feeling
It’s so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It’s so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don’t go away
Cause I need you now
And I’ll hold on to it
Don’t you let it pass you by

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Ride

But the truth is we never really grow up.

We just masquerade as adults,

because that’s what we’re expected to do.

Really short update because I don’t want to neglect this space just because of the upcoming exams (though I’ll acknowledge the importance of finals). The past few days have been … mugging & mugging, and more mugging. Not that I’m complaining, I’m actually really enjoying what I study now. It’s just the concept of “exams” and “grades” that really irks me, as though we’re forced to study just because we need/want to get good grades. Who says I can’t be reading up about these psych stuff because I’m genuinely interested, exams or not? But then again, society makes everything boil down to performing well in such tests … and hence it’s back to hardcore mugging ultimately for the sake of good grades. Well at least I’m enjoying, I really am. I see true meaning in the things that I’m studying (well maybe one or two mods are an exception), but otherwise all else is good 🙂

‘been listening to 4 songs on replay while mugging (courtesy of sis who let me download the songs into her phone ‘cos my iTunes has … certain issues which forbid me from adding songs currently ugh). These songs are more of the slow/ballad kinds, not upbeat, perfect for mugging 🙂 Not sure if I actually work well with listening to music while mugging but at least it keeps me more focused somehow, while the music I listen to drift into the background. It’s there, but I’m not paying attention to it as much, but at least it’s there. Go figure what the effects are haha, ‘cos honestly I’m not really sure too. Anyway the 4 songs are:

Ride – Lana Del Rey

West Coast – Lana Del Rey

Gods & Monsters – Lana Del Rey

House on a Hill – The Pretty Reckless

So evidently I’m a fan of LDR. West Coast is the first single released from her upcoming album Ultraviolence, the other two are from the Paradise Edition of Born to Die album released some time last year. There’s just something about the songs of LDR and her voice that matches so well & makes you fall deep into, nothing else really matters when you’re listening to her songs, it’s almost finding the peace within. The last song of the list House on a Hill, it was a looong process of how I got to know of this song. First I saw on twitter that Taylor Momsen (acted as Jenny Humphrey in Gossip Girl series) was quitting acting for good to focus on her music career – which shocked me because I didn’t actually know she was the lead vocals of a band (aka The Pretty Reckless). So I decided to give their album a try, and out of all the songs in their second studio album (released earlier this year), this ballad caught my attention almost immediately 🙂 And gosh I miss watching Gossip Girl, shall rewatch all 6 seasons after finals. And also to finish watching Pretty Little Liars season 4, can’t wait for Season 5 to be out omg *o*

Oh and Avril Lavigne is releasing her Hello Kitty music video in 2 days’ time, so damn excited for it like all the little black stars in my twitter timeline 🙂 And of course patiently waiting for Give You What You Like music video to drop as well. Awesome songs from her latest self-titled album, definitely worth a listen so please do when you can hee.

Alright it’s probably time to get off endlessparadigm, going to prepare some stuff for Char before I’ll commence mugging for the day. It’s tiring but it’ll be worth it – at least that’s what I always tell myself at times like these, don’t know if I’m delusional or psychoing myself into studying haha whoops.

8 more days till the first paper of finals, may these final 8 days of pre-finals mugging be nothing but productive. All the best to everyone who’s handling exams currently, it’ll be over all too soon before you know it, so persevere & it’ll be alright.

So till the next time x