Heartbeat

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We’re all scared most of the time. Life would be lifeless if we weren’t. Be scared, and then jump into that fear. Again and again. Just remember to hold on to yourself while you do it.

Had a fun time with (part of) 14MC for MC Photoshoot earlier today 🙂 Really excited and hopeful for the term ahead with 14MC, it won’t be an easy path, but at the end of our term, hopefully we will all be able to look back and have many fond memories etched in our minds/hearts for the rest of our lives 🙂 Glad that I’m given the platform to pursue something that I’m passionate about, hoping that everything will work out eventually. Things have been made easier with a bunch of fun people to work with, I’ll definitely be at a loss without all of their guidance & advice. May 14MC be more bonded, serve CSC well in our various positions, be more active as a volunteer on-the-ground, and have fun while we’re at it 🙂

Received the results of my (one & only) midterms, glad I didn’t screw it up despite studying for it only the night before. Perks of it being a psychology-related social work module, and that it was an MCQ test haha. Need to start mugging for finals soon after all the submissions are over; 3 submissions this week + 1 next week, can’t wait to have the time to fully concentrate on finals! Rather determined to do well (or at least decent) this semester, especially since it’s my first semester taking social work modules hee. Social work studies have been really insightful thus far, and it opened my eyes to many details that I’ve overlooked in the past. May the subsequent modules of social work in upcoming semesters be as fulfilling as this semester has been 🙂

Normality is subjective – it’s a social construct, and it’s perceived in different ways, from different point of views, depending on how you define it to be. What constitutes actions/thoughts that are supposedly normal anyway? Been doing quite a bit of soul searching amidst the busy days, trying to understand what I truly want and what matters more. It’s unhealthy to harp onto things/thoughts that don’t deserve any attention, or even contributing to the sadness faced for that matter. Sometimes it’s inevitable to clutch onto those memories in hope for a reoccurrence even though we know it’s not going to happen. And over-reliance is a big no-no.

But then I realised – you can’t find someone who will fix you. That’s not how it works. You’re supposed to find someone who inspires you to fix yourself. Not someone who thinks all your flaws are perfect, but someone who challenges them; someone who can tell you that you can rise above the past and learn to love & trust again. No one will show up in your life with the magic words to chase the demons away. But one day you will meet someone who will make you want to fight them off yourself, because they deserve nothing less than your best.

Being positive doesn’t mean pretending everything is okay all the time. It means acknowledging your feelings & realising that you have the power to overcome any obstacle. It means realising that although you can’t control your circumstances, you can always see the silver lining. There is always a silver lining.

Late nights serve as an apt time to craft such thought-provoking posts, enjoying the peace & tranquility that only nights can provide. Alright back to socio-cultural theories in social work assignment, hoping to complete it before sunrise haha. Productivity level needs to increaseee haha.

P.S. Really a sucker for flowers & helium balloons, so pretty omg hahah okay till the next time x

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Wonderwall

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I know I said I’ll post about my Korea trip … but I’m still in the process of typing it out (it’s gonna be reaaaally long), so yup it’ll be up in the next few days because I’m mega busy these days …

So what’s this post about? I’ve actually been wanting to blog about something ever since last week actually. It’s about my latest commitment – volunteering.

As most of you already know, I was in the Adventure Camp subcomm as the secretary. Thankful that camp turned out okay despite certain hiccups around, but at least the youths had fun & hence I’ll (shamelessly) declare the camp to have been a success!

Recently, I got the chance to be appointed as v.chair of Youth Rangers committee 🙂 Glad to have gotten this amazing opportunity, and that I had the courage to step up and assume the role (after contemplations). Thank you to friends who helped me make this decision & gave me the courage to do so, because I don’t regret it one bit even though I just started embarking on this role.

It’s really an eye-opener how different things are as a v.chair, and I find myself reflecting + gaining a lot of insights after every YR related activity/meeting. Yes, my schedule is more packed than usual these days due to the countless meetings, but amidst the heavy workload, I find this really, really meaningful. Not just as an individual, but as a committee/sector, where we really dedicate our thoughts into discussions etc.

As long as you put your heart into the things you’re doing, you’ll not find it a chore at all. And through volunteering, it makes you truly appreciate the little things in life that you may have been taking for granted all your life, which others can only hopelessly wish for. Volunteering really humbles people, making you able to empathize more for everyone around you. May the spirit of volunteering continue to spread like a healthy disease to more people, and let there be more love in the world :’)

There’s just so much more that I feel in my heart which I’m unable to express in words, but I feel it all, I really do. I sincerely thank the role models I’ve met thus far in NUS CSC, who have served as an inspiration for me to perform up to the best of my abilities. Alongside my committee, I hope that we will be able to bring Youth Rangers to greater heights. Being the pioneer batch isn’t easy, but I have confident that as a committee, we will be able to do it, and do it well.

Shall end off with a quote that’s rather apt in a sense pertaining to volunteering:

I hope you make the best of it.

And I hope you see things that startle you.

I hope you feel things you never  felt before.

I hope you meet people with a different point of view.

I hope you live a life you’re proud of.

 

If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

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Also, today is the birthday of a fellow precious Inspirit, so happy 21st Q! ♡