Tabula Rasa

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Holding on takes strength, letting go takes everything.

So, so true. More often than not, people tend to view those who “let go” or “give up” as cowards, as failures. But have they thought about how much it takes to let go?

Motivations, or the supposed lack thereof. Pretty intriguing, I would say.

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Night & Day

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Imma love you night & day

I love you 24 hours, thank you for being you

It’s amazing every time I see you, you’re so beautiful

The sun rises high during the day, the moon rises at night

Because I will always protect you

Above lyrics quoted from Night & Day by Wheesung, it’s an amazing song that caught my ears almost immediately (click on the title of the song to be directed to the song on YT!), really worth a listen (‘: The lyrics are so nice, the melody is so captivating. Personally my favorite melody in this song is when he sings “I love you 24 hours” *o* 

Anyway … finally got my hands on INFINITE’s Season 2 album, thanks to Q for ordering it for us!! 

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By far my favorite album design of Infinite among the albums that I have, and sooo happy I managed to get Dongwoo’s photocard! The feeling of seeing your bias photocard is really magical, and no need for trading or whatsoever hee. Gonna cherish this album well, looooove the hidden track. Trollim as usual, making us wait for approximately 3 minutes of silence after Track 13 on the album before the hidden track plays. Not complaining though, Hey Hello is such a worthy hidden track, mega addictive hee.

It’s quite amusing to see Inspirits all pumped up & active for this comeback, normally Inspirits are more chill/laid back. But this time it’s different, and it feels great to be part of this fandom. The pure bliss when they snagged the trophy yesterday during their Show Champion comeback stage, finally we get to trend #LastRomeo1stWin :’) M countdown later, hoping for second win! Because the boys deserve it, live singing for a dance performance for every stage, how they still sound so amazing with MR removed, it shows how much they have improved along the way (:

Last Romeo is a worthy title track imo, although some people think otherwise. It was an immediate like for me, took some others a few listens before it grew on them. Click on the title for the link to the MV, give it a chance, give it a listen, you won’t regret (: Rosinante + Memories are the non-title tracks that are my preferences in the album hee. 

Alright enough with the k-pop stuff hmm … life has been pretty good to me so far this holidays! Finally got time to play the piano again & read boooooks. The song that I’ve been playing repeatedly on the piano these days is none other than I Remember, simply love the melody & lyrics/vocals in this song that I felt compelled to learn haha. And reading books! divergent series amidst other random books hee. 

And of course meet-ups with friends & what-nots. Busy busy, but all worth it + makes life less boring! Physical meet-ups >>> chatting via online messaging etc after all.

Shall stop the update here (seems abrupt whoops), till the next time friends x

Silent words

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The stupid thing about anger is how people hurt you and then you let them keep hurting you by being angry about how they originally hurt you. It’s a vicious cycle.

This above quote aptly sums up my emotions recently, & I find myself having more random outbursts in whatsapp/text messages to the few closest friends. Kind of feeling like a burden to my friends, everyone has their own problems etc to handle but I really need platforms to vent my frustrations or else I’ll prolly go insane at this rate by keeping it all in. So sincerely thankful you guys bother to listen to me as I rant repeatedly like some crazy girl! Appreciate all the attempts at cooling me down that evening though, these friends are still the best yey thank you you guys know who you are :’)

Anyway … hello endlessparadigm this is a (supposedly) proper update since midterms are over!!! Concluded Y1S2 midterms with social psych midterms on Friday. It was a shitty paper because so many stuff that didn’t appear in the textbook got tested so … many foreign terms that I have never encountered before in my life HAHA ah well at least it’s over! And I tried my best, so no regrets 🙂 May the the bell curve be in my favour (for once LOL). Before the paper, prof showed us examples of past children’s story books that seniors did, really excited to get started on it because it could possibly be the most interesting/memorable project in my uni life!

Went to KAP today with (part of) 11S7G! (: Visiting it because it’s going to be demolished soon … that place holds waaay to many memories, dating all the way back to 2007, where being in NYGH started the frequent trips/outing to KAP! Kind of sad as it is a relatively representative place in my schooling memories, but then again those memories will be etched in my mind. And what’s more, it’s the people who created those memories that matter (: Took the chance to catch up with friends as well, so excited to meet them again soooon. These are the people who keep my crazy life a little more sane.

This post seems so scattered but I’m really just typing whatever that comes to my mind first so yup hee. Oh yes supported my dearest hierarchy babe @ NTU Choir Concert on 2 March ’14, so proud of her, and glad that I attended the concert! Because it’s the first time I see her dancing AND doing martial arts, not to mention her solo/duet for Under The Sea! It was a really engaging & interesting concert, kudos to NTU Choir, & good job to both SY & JW who performed! Went to taka before the concert with YM, and we spent most of our time in Kino HAHA. After debating with myself for such a long time + advice from friends, I finally got my hands on a copy of L&M by Lang Leav! *o* Not really a poetry kind of person but the poems in L&M just get to me so easily, this is definitely a book that I’ll cherish for a long long time hee. It was a fulfilling shopping trip to Kino for both YM & me, so yay to us! *pops confetti*

Oh yes & all the best to everyone who still has midterm papers/quizzes etc! I feel like a slacker as compared to my friends now since my papers are over whoooops. I’ll buck up soon! But first lemme enjoy for a while more hee really can’t wait for this coming fri it’s gon be TGIF again :’)

Our culture says that feelings of love,

Are the basis of actions of love.

And of course that can be true.

But it is truer to say

That actions of love,

Can lead consistently 

To feelings of love.

 

I must mention: Thank you to the friends who know their limits of what (not) to say/do x

Time turns flame to embers

“We stopped checking for monsters under our beds when we realized they were inside of us.”

Not looking forward to tomorrow at all. For one, we’re gon get linear alg + soci midterm papers back … and there’s also another reason. May everything go well, although I can foresee it to be a really bad day ahead already sigh. Shall just see how it goes ):

Finished one of the three books that I borrowed, will start on the second book tonight (: Reading really gets my mind off stuff. And that’s a good thing, considering how messed up my thoughts are right now ugh. Can’t decide which book to read first though, both seem so interesting *o* 

Coooool it just started raining YEY I love night rains (: The sky is weeping for me, tomorrow is my doomsday. And I really don’t know what to type already so I shall end this pointless post soon, thanks for taking your time to read this LOL.

“I think one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other: their secrets, their fears, their favourite things, what they love, what they hate, literally everything, and then they go back to being strangers. It’s like you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them, never even talked to them before, when really, you know everything about them.”

I don’t want any of my friendships/relationships to end this way ): But sometimes, it’s inevitable, isn’t it? Why must life be so complicated. If only time could rewind, things would have been so different, if I knew then what I know now. If only.

Sidenote, please let everything go well. Please let it be worth it. And no I’m not talking about academics for this.

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It’s a terrible love

 

Goodbye may seem forever,

farewell is like the end,

but in my heart is a memory and

there you will always be.

I know I’ve neglected endlessparadigm for a few days now, don’t worry I haven’t abandoned you yet hahah. Been really busy and stuff these few days to do a proper update (including today since I got home not long ago from Kaile’s 1 y-o birthday party which I will post about in detail soon I promise). Just wanted to post for the sake of … posting or else there will be cob webs and spiders crawling all over endlessparadigm LOL. Alright proper update soon, hopefully by tomorrow hee time to hit the books midterms are coming

 

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