Adia

Avril’s version (2007) of Adia by Sarah McLachlan (1997) // my latest addiction

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
don’t you know I tried so hard
to love you in my way
it’s easy let it go…

Adia I’m empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong

’cause there’s no one left to finger
there’s no one here to blame
there’s no one left to talk to honey
and there ain’t no one to buy our innocence
’cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it’s easy, we all falter
does it matter?

Adia I thought we could make it
but I know I can’t change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won’t betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
and show you all the beauty you possess
if you’d only let yourself believe that
we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it’s easy, we all falter, does it matter?
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
’cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still
it’s easy, we all falter … but does it matter?

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Take Heart

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This post marks the 200th post on endlessparadigm, since my first post waaaaay back in 2013 (I think)! Happy 200th post, may there be many more posts to come, to document the little details in my life, for this platform will serve as a useful tool when I feel like taking a trip down memory lane 🙂 Still remember vividly that I moved away from livejournal & created this blog for a fresh start, since the timing coincided nicely with my entry to university. It has been a long journey since then, hoping to find some time to settle down and look back all my posts!

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This post also marks another significant event – the rebranding of Youth Rangers. As of 19 July, the rebranding of Youth Rangers has been approved – it will be known as Youth Beacons from now on. First milestone for our incoming successors, which also signifies the stepping down from our roles in YR soon. So bittersweet, and so much to share about this whole journey. Definitely going to find a time to post about my journey in YR, and my hopes for YB in the near future 🙂

Take Heart by The Sam Willows is mad addictive, go check it out if you haven’t already done so. Local talent, local pride, it’s an amazing song really.

Twist and turn of fate caused me to pull out of something at the last minute, something which I’ve intended to join since last year. Not sure if it’s the right decision, well not like I had a choice to begin with, after everything thus far. Still holding on to my belief that everything happens for a reason, maybe I’m not meant to join it after all? Whatever it is, on the bright side, Y3S1 wouldn’t be as packed/busy as I intended for it to be, so I guess that’s a good thing for me haha. No point regretting, I made the decision, I bear the consequences. All I hope is for it to have been the right decision. Or at least, that I’ll have the ability to ensure it was a right choice.

Trying my best to not let anything spoil my mood from now on! I’m going to be a really happy girl this coming week for various reasons, starting tomorrow 🙂 x

Why

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn’t you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don’t care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you’re far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It’s not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we’re not saying
Let’s play, a different game than what we’re playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I’m gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you’re far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It’s not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you’re far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

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One of my favourites from Avril’s debut album waaaaaay back in 2002 🙂 x

A Little Happy

A little happy is all it ever takes Somebody else just tell you that it’s worth fighting A single step becomes a leap a faith That’s when you realize just starting flying

Avril Lavigne dropped her latest single today, titled Fly! It’s a really meaningful song as she released it in association with the 2015 Special Olympics World Summer Games. Quoted a verse from the song above, the lyrics for Fly are really meaningful, and applicable in different circumstances, no matter what you may be going through currently. So so happy for this song to be released so timely, serving as a source of motivation (& a new song to get hooked on to) amidst these few hectic & insane weeks. With the submission of the final project today, I can finally embark on focused preparations for the upcoming finals. Less than a month before the end of finals and the start of a little getaway, before returning back to fulfilling commitments all over again. Packed summer ahead with many events revolving around my passion, so I’m actually pretty much looking forward to summer break! It’ll be tiring, but a different kind of tired – a fun & definitely meaningful one at that. tumblr_nmo1slc9uG1s62z8ro1_400

People talk about closure, but I don’t buy it. When someone blasts a hole in your life, it tends to stay open. If that wound heals, the surface remains tainted by scars that sink deeper. I do believe in healing. But losing someone, or being hurt by another isn’t something you just move on from. You don’t go back to the same person you were before. It isn’t necessarily a bad thing. But there’s no denying that once inflicted, even healed wounds have now become a part of you.

This is a new perspective of things, worth pondering over. I guess it’s the same concept of people saying that things are just masking over each other, and yet no matter how deeply embedded or hidden away they are, they still exist. It’s still there, you just don’t see it at the surface level. Embrace the differences, the ups and downs in your life; feel thankful for being strong enough to handle the tough times, feel grateful for the little happy things that occur, for they all matter. Saw this quote on Tumblr a few days back, posting it here because I really love & believe in the idea/concept of soulmates 🙂

A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out & we can be completely & honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are & not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person.

Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.

Alright till the next time, everyone go listen to Avril’s song okay please support her & the incredible song Fly yaaay okay bye x

Little Talks

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One day, you realize that there are some people you’ll never see again. At least, not in the same way.

Song to recommend: I’ll Be Ok by Ailee 🙂 As usual, click on the title for the link to the song hee. Thanks Yumin for discovering this song randomly & sharing it with me, because I’m utterly hooked to it right now. Ailee’s vocals are really insane it’s so therapeutic to listen to, definitely my favorite female solo artiste in Kpop!

December has been really kind to me thus far, hoping that the remaining days will continue to be awesome. At least 2014 will end on a good note (hopefully)! 🙂 Aaaand I think I’m not ready to turn 20 haha.

3 more days to Christmas, so excited! x

Don’t Look At Me Like That

‘ve been pretty out-of-touch with Korean pop these days … but decided to spend time to listen to this song because the MV just dropped today & I’m a fan of Ji Eun! Strongly recommending this song – it’s so powerful & the lyrics are like, WHOA. Really worth the listen! English subbed lyrics are captioned in this version of the video already (: The melody of the song is nothing too strong, but full of emotions & what-nots.

“Don’t Look at Me Like That” has a rather controversial, experimental lyrics about love between the same sex, different races, different ages, and other possibly prejudiced and stereotyped relationships. This is a supposed taboo topic in society, but definitely gaining more recognition these days. Just like what the lyrics intend to convey, non-mainstream relationships shouldn’t be looked down upon because it ultimately boils down to each individual. & I think it’s really, really important to respect every single person in society, without looking down on them just because they might be “different”. After all, who are we to discern what’s the supposed norm in society? Majority doesn’t always win.

I’ve seen many different interpretations of the music video, & many make sense in their own ways. To me, the MV is really deep/meaningful, with it being in monochromatic colors till the very end, portraying the title of “difference” that she supposedly represents. With everyone else wearing masks as though this is a masquerade, it shows the falseness or pretense, where people in society generally wear masks to cover their true intentions, but at the same time judging others with their own eyes through the masks they are wearing. Moreover, having Ji Eun chained up throughout the entire MV till the very end – where she finally manages to break free from the chains. The chains properly represent the burden from society with their judging eyes, and all the hateful stereotypes/comments. It’s so heartening when she finally manages to break free eventually, despite at the expense of hurting others (aka society) ultimately. Such a simple set-up for the music video, yet with a deeper meaning embedded within, such a powerful song :’)

I’m glad that Song Ji Eun is taking the bold move in experimenting with such genres. As a member of Secret, their songs are usually more upbeat & catchy. But as a solo singer, I think Song Ji Eun really suits the “dark” genre, with her lyrics & voice aptly encapsulating the deeper/darker thoughts, while bringing across the message intended. No need for explosive vocals at all, this is really just right :’)

Anyway for those interested, these are two of her other past solo songs that she has released before, worth the listen: Going Crazy & False Hope. Just click on the respective song titles for the link to videos with English lyrics subbed!

Another of my fave K-pop solo female artiste Ailee is going to comeback soon … can’t wait for the song to be released hee. For now, I shall sign off this post with the full (translated) lyrics from Don’t Look At Me Like That. Hope you’ll enjoy this song as much as I do x

When the lights start to turn off, I quietly go to meet you
A flower blooms in the world that’s only filled with thorns
Why? Why not?
They whisper and go against us
Why? Why not?
We’re so in love

Don’t look at me like that
We’re just in love, that’s all
Don’t hate on us, however you’re viewing us
We’re just a little different
Just leave us alone

Can’t we live in a world where time stands still?
Why? Why not?
We did nothing wrong
Why? Why not?
We’re so in love

Don’t look at me like that
We’re just in love, that’s all
Don’t hate on us, however you’re viewing us
We’re just a little different
Just leave us alone

Tell Me What Is Wrong
Tell Me What Is Wrong
Tell Me What Is Love
Tell Me What Is Love

I want to love however I want
I won’t change no matter what anyone says

Don’t look at me like that
We’re just in love, that’s all
Don’t hate on us, however you’re viewing us
We’re just a little different
Just leave us alone

So yesterday

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So much running through my mind
First you wanna be free
Now you say you need me
Giving mixed signals and signs
It’s so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again

 

Put the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway
The traffic in my brain’s
Driving me insane 
This is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away