No Better Than Strangers

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So drained these days, but holding on because of the people around me. Everyone’s really stressed out over upcoming finals & what-nots, and it’s kind of ironic because as much as people say grades do not define us, it does matter, as an undergraduate. Thank you to all the welfare from ’em friends, such gestures really serve as a motivation boost to continue hanging in there. Can’t wait for finals to be over, it’s just 16 days more yaaaay. Hoping for the best for everyone, may we all achieve ideal results in the upcoming finals 🙂

Congratulations to Lovelyz for finally being able to debut :’) It has been a long wait for Woollim girls indeed, may their debut be worthwhile, although they are off to a rocky start (evidently). For those unsure of what I’m talking about, click here to read this really, really detailed & long update about what’s going on (cr: koreanboo). With member Jisoo being embroiled in this controversy/rumour, it really diminishes the worth of all other scandals in the industry in 2014. Despite reading various varied views & perspectives on this matter, it’s a fact that we will never know the absolute truth. That’s the thing about humans, being trained to deceit so skillfully it’s becoming so … scary. Really hoping that all the accusations against Jisoo aren’t true, but if it is, may legal action be taken towards her, for all the wrong-doings & crimes that she has committed in the past. Should the accusations towards her be true, I can’t imagine the amount of stress & hurt felt by the alleged victims … landing themselves into depression, performing acts of suicide, all because of one girl. It’s so scary to think that anyone is even capable of such acts in the first place, and she’s of the same age as me.

One thing that struck me particularly was something that the alleged victims said in their latest updates:

Society doesn’t look upon us with favor, so we don’t have much power.
The louder we speak the bigger the stone that is thrown at us.

Don’t you think it’s rather saddening how these supposed “minorities” are looked down upon & heavily stigmatized in society? Why can’t people just be accepting for what all these individuals are. Society is so ugly, letting certain traits of people be defining them so carelessly. What people need to realize, is really to see the bigger picture, and view them as human beings. Step out of your little bubble of your so-called perfect world, and see that despite the flaws in the world, the differences that people might have, you aren’t the prototype of ideal – nobody is. Perhaps stepping back & viewing the world as it is, will allow you to feel more humble & not be so judgmental of everything that you perceive to be correct. Because it’s difficult to be objective, but it’s much needed.

To be honest, my stand on this matter keeps swaying sides with each new piece of information popping out, and I wouldn’t exactly say that I’m definite she’s guilty or whatsoever. It has been really interesting discussing this matter with quite a few friends, but honestly everything is just so ambiguous & confusing now. This matter is really spiraling to become such a huuuuge scale & involving/hurting so many people in the process. May the truth come to light soon, and the real culprit(s) get what she/they deserve(s), and end the sufferings for the true victim(s).

Alright it’s time to hit the books again, till the next time x

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Four times around the sun

It’s so funny
the memories give me such a hard time
and make me feel lonely

 

But those memories are like gravity
Pulling all of my heart to you
I can’t escape

While the earth went four times around the sun
I longed for you and

Erased you hundreds of times

From, To

I know the title of my post seems really weird/doesn’t make any sense. But it’s something that I saw on Tumblr that I really want to share because it was just like … whoa it made me so damn speechless when I saw it. Bittersweet sad post in just a few mere sentences.

Two months into our relationship you once asked me how much I loved you and I just said “From here”.

You didn’t get it and you got mad and you thought I was just playing around.

 

Breaking up after almost 2 years being together, I sent you a message 6 months later saying “To here.”

 

You still didn’t get it.

)’: It’s such a bitter feeling.

And this is basically what I’ve been doing these few days – Burying my head in books after books, notes after notes, mugging for finals. Honestly don’t except myself to get a good CAP this sem, I’m just hoping for decent grades enough to get me by. And I’ll repent & be a good girl from next sem onwards I promise! Since I somehow earned a reputation of constantly ponning lectures this sem … but some lectures are really a waste of time AND can be self-studied so I don’t see the point in being physically present, especially since there’s webcast as well. Not to mention the long travelling time from home to school, and then back home, that’s so much precious time wasted. Hence, ponning lectures is justifiable (who am I kidding). Next sem, I’ll be a good girl.

Remember my previous post about Avril Lavigne & how I wish that she’d come to SG for a concert? The morning after I wrote that post – my dream came TRUE. 5 Nov 2013, I woke up at approx 10am learning that Avril Lavigne is having her concert 15 Feb 2014 *o* And that the tickets have started selling since 9am (!!) So yes … I finally got my hands on 2 Cat-1 tickets, imagine the pure bliss & excitement that I experienced that morning (‘: 5 Nov 2013 was supposed to be a nostalgic day since it was the 1-month mark since then. But I’m glad this sudden surprise of Avril’s concert tided me through that entire day I was literally all smiles & what-not (:

Avril Lavigne Live in Singapore 2014 – Rawesome Tour

How good does that sound ^^ My tickets arrived in the mail a couple of days ago, keeping them safe because I’ll just kill myself if I lose them. So damn glad for a dream-come-true, just imagine seeing Avril Lavigne in real life, and most importantly getting to listen to her sing live omg I can’t contain my excitement *o* 

Oh yes and JIN made her debut on 8 Nov 2013, her debut song Gone is currently on replay (click on the title to watch the MV!) It’s so nice, the MV was so touching, the ending was so bittersweet :’) Just some background info for those who aren’t familiar, JIN debut as a solo artist for now, but she will officially debut & promote as a member of Woollim’s Girl Group early next year, alongside Baby Soul, Ji Ae, and a few other girls. Both Baby Soul & Ji Ae have made their solo debut, and JIN is the last girl from Woollim’s Girl Group to get to have a solo debut! JIN’s vocals are soooo good (just like Baby Soul) and a plus point is that JIN is so pretty omg. 

See what I mean? Really looking forward to Woollim’s Girl Group debut early next year (coupled with INFINITE’s comeback after their World Tour ends early next year as well). Have some reservations about Woolim’s Girl Group because of certain reasons but … I’ll hold my comments till their debut (: Really hope they won’t disappoint – after all Woolliment doesn’t disappoint, their artistes are awesome this way hee. Love the (translated) lyrics for Gone as well, I’m a sucker for bittersweet songs/lyrics.

In the place where we were together

In those moments where we could have walked together

I’m holding onto myself alone

In this place, even our future, my wishes have stopped

I’m standing here and you are gone

 

I’m sorry for the incoherent post but I’m just really typing whatever that comes to my mind hee.

Snapchat is awesome. Mega love my regular Snapchat buddies who never fail to make my day (several times) with ’em insane Snapchats (‘: Coincidentally, these are the people who keep me going every single day. Those whom I trust in my life, those whom I rely on so so so much for everything & anything. Play hard, work hard. It’ll ultimately be worth it, eventually.

Last thing before I end my post & head back to conquering Linear alg (wish me luck Lab Quiz in a few days ugh matlab … sucks). CLB is allowing overnight study, basically it’s open 24/7, should I should I? I’m the kind who can’t concentrate at home I end up doing useless stuff/ things not related to academics like updating endlessparadigm *coughs*. And studying in central library AND studying at night really makes me waaay more productive. Said this many times before, I’m not a morning/daytime person. My productivity rate shoots up at night as long as I get over the sleepy phase! Considering overnight study, anyone interested to join me?

Finals start in 16 days, PRESS ON. And it’s time to study go go jiayou don’t give up not now not ever (:

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